It's hard being surrounded by angels
When you are the devil
They are kind and caring and thoughtful
Full of life and constantly show the good in life

Then there's you, the devil
The fallen from Grace and continues to do so
No matter what kindness you put out
It's no surprise that you continue to fall

Despite being surrounded by angels
It's nothing new to fall when you are the

Devil

They say a good man will bring out good
From his heart
But a evil man will only bring wickedness
Out of his heart
But the world isn't this black and white
It's gray and confusing
Am I bringing good out of my heart?
Or am I the evil that some think I am

Surrounded by brothers telling stories
Doors opening as more come in to join
A blonde goddess jumps in my arms
As the room starts spinning a tear comes
Out
Your babies grew up, the good ole days passed
Nothing will be the same everything is changing
If only you can go back to the good ole days before you realized they were gone for good

You may feel like life is kicking you
when you are down
Raining blows down on you
when you are weak
Stand your ground though
Sharpen your steel on each hit
Waiting

Then fall like a lightening strike on the world
And soon the world will here the thunder of your name echoing
The world will know who you are

Some will move heaven and earth
For those they love
But
I will go through hell and fight every demon
To give you a better life than mine
C.R.

Icy winds
Cold fronts
Frosty evenings
Even with all this cold
Still warmer than your heart

I shouldn't of been surprised
with you still on campus,
you had the time and energy
To buy the jury against me
The guilty verdict coming to no surprise
No matter my side
Forever guilty and the devil

I wonder how many say they are better off without me in their life
Saying I was the problem or the pain
Causing them to not succeed
I wonder but only for a minute
Because my soulmates need my attention more than the past

A soulmate may not have your heart
May not of been in your life long

But their connection burns in your soul
For the rest of your life

Who are you?
Who are you anymore?
Where are you?
Do you think of us?

After you left?
Exiting our lives when we were young
Clinging to good memories from the bad
Wondering about the future

You got remarried I know that
Do you have other kids now?
Are they your kids now?
Do we not exist in your mind anymore

I used to ask these questions and ponder
But now?

You don't exist and still won't
My accomplishments are mine and mine alone
I make my Father happy and not you
When I get married, have kids you won't be included

You don't exist in my life

Hopefully I don't exist in yours either because

Who are you?

Charlotte Rose not even here and stole my heart
Already wrapped around your finger
You will drive me insane and worry me all night

When you finally come I will finally know
A love that will never fade
One that will burn to my end

A rose
beautiful but ready to sting
Protected and brilliant

I will be there for you no matter what
For a love of a child is greater than anything in the

World

I want to thank you for being here for me
For helping me through this dark time
For lifting me up when I was down
For making me smile when I was frowning
For reaching out from 10 miles away or 1000 miles
I want to thank you for reminding me that I can be happy
For knowing I have people who won't leave me
I want to thank you for reminding me I am loved when I thought I was unloved

Not everyone has a poem about them

or are mentioned under these lines

but their names are stitched upon my

heart over the cracks from past and

recent heartbreak holding me together

Keeping me from becoming broken

Navigating life is hard
It's easy when someone is there helping to guide you
When that person is gone you become lost

Lost in the sea of life
Hurricanes crashing into your
Small boat, threatening capsizing it
Looking for the safe Sanctum

You search for the lighthouse
To guide you to safety, to take your
Heart into it's safety

As the darkness surrounding you
Starts to close in, you feel scared
Waiting for the pain of clashing on
The rocks

When the hope is swiftly gone
And the fear starts to overwhelm
Whispering to you to give up

A sleek light comes from the darkness
Not the same light as before
A brighter one, warmer than the last

This one comes not from one heart but those of many coming to save the sailor. Friends reaching out to bring him home

Though the light is far away and a hurricane to get through, the sailor realizes the fear stopped talking
And sitting next to him growing was

Hope