taste the whip
ache just like a woman
but you break just like a girl
different colors made of tears
oui c'est la folie
chain reaction and mutation
it's in the air for you and me
welt rises

I am not okay today

I've been underwater
about five beats longer
than I would like
Starving for air
yet my lungs
are already full

My vision blurry
Fragments and flashes
of life
and light
and darkness

I am not okay today
For no reason at all
I am not okay

But I will be.

You mind your steps
   after you've stumbled.
You miss your home
   after you’ve left it.
You value your health
   after you’ve been sick.

But you can’t enjoy life
   after you died.

that little heart-shaped pump
uncomplaining
doing its job
waits to fall in love
and falling in love
beats happily ever after.

what have you released into todays sky?
tomorrows woe?

I spend so much time
telling girls
that they are beautiful
Yet so much time
telling myself
I am not