Sarah Bouse

Sarah Bouse May 2015

I would be lying if I said that I didn't miss the look on your face when you told me you loved me. I would also be lying if I said that I don't miss how you sung along to In The Aeroplane Over The Sea every time we played it in the car. How you didn't miss a single word. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss the sound of your voice when you were falling asleep. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss the way you made me feel. Physically and emotionally. I would be lying if I said I don't miss the sound of your heartbeat when I was falling asleep on your chest. I would also be lying if I said I didn't still see the moon and stars in your eyes. I would be lying if I said that I didn't still write about you all the time. That I believe writing you into paper would bring back the person I once knew.

But I would also be lying if I said I missed you. If I said you didn't completely destroy me. If I said you weren't the biggest ******* I've ever met. I wouldn't be lying if I said I would take you back in a ******* heartbeat if you gave me the chance. What I would do to be in your arms again.

#love #heartbreak #sad #lost #you #breakup #lying #missing

Apr 2015

Beebz The Queen

i hope you read this and feel like absolute ****

Baby I don't know why I told you I was done
Why I said I didn't want to speak again
The truth is, I want you with me always
Because I trusted you enough to let you in
I let you in who I was and who I wished to be
I let you in my heart, in my head, in my pants
I thought the more I let you in there'd be hope
That maybe you'd finally give "us" a chance
You used to hold me so carefully like I'd break
Which made me certain I could never be strong
So I clung to you like I hoped you cling to me
But I never knew that I could be so wrong
My heart is literally aching, and throbbing
My mind is trying to erase you from me
Your hands, your lips, that smile, those eyes
It's soon to be gone, maybe then I'll be free
But I know freedom cannot be reached
Because still these chains hold me back
I'm bound to you because I loved you
This bond will make my heart crack.

For so long I had no words to write
And it made me mad, down to my core
I never thought I'd write of you and me
And practically admit to being a *****
But here I am always writing it out
And somewhere maybe you'll read this and cry
Because you'll know you've ruined me
With every promise, every kiss, every lie
I made you promises and I kept them all
And I would willingly run back into your arms
I'd hold you tight and cry all night
If you promised to sheild me from all harm
I know this poem is too ******* long
It's hurting me to write it all out honestly
I want him to see this though and feel bad
I want him to finally cry over how he hurt me.

Apr 2015

Arlo Disarray

One Hundred Years

If in a week you loved me
I'd gladly take you back
Because it's easy to see
We simply got off track

And if it takes a month instead
I'll gladly wait around
I've meant each "I love you" I've said
Can't you hear it in the sound?

And it may even take a year
Before you feel it again
But I will be patient, my dear
And I'll just stay your friend

Maybe ten years down the road
Our paths will again cross
And we'll get right back in the mode
to gain back all we've lost

If not ten years, then maybe more
but that's alright with me
I'll keep my heart inside a drawer
for you, kept so safely

Even if it takes fifty years for you
and we're wrinkled, old, and grey
I'd do my best to pull on through
and enjoy our remaining days

Maybe it will take one hundred years
And I'll be six feet under ground
But if your ghost told me "I'm ready dear"
I'd come right back around

#love #heartbreak #sad #lonely #pain #breakup

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