you are my own personal cup of poison and i am drowning my insides with it.
there is this ticking time bomb inside of me that beats to the rhythm of my heart and when you are near,
it shoots into high gear and threatens to explode.
******* into a thousand pieces and let me fade into the night; i am quite exhausted from the fear of my seconds speeding by when you care to pay me a visit in your convenience.
i do not wish to be tortured by your games anymore.
the words to tell you to leave me alone for good are stuck on the tip of my tongue,
because i know that the words “i love you too” are stuck on the tip of yours.
who will spill their toxins first?
you push me away with your fake flattery into an abyss of self destruction.
i stumbled over unrequited affections on the way and now i am buried under eternities wasted on loving you.
i do wish that one day those words will tumble out of my mouth in a drunken haze and i will forget that i was the reason you’ve finally kept away.
i cannot spend any more days talking to you with months getting over you.
it is time to dismantle this bomb before i let you **** me.