Dear, my Deer in the headlights
startled by this deep desire…
Did my fire frighten you away
into thick forests where you stay
& hide your gentle light from my sight?

I am no mountain cougar
crouching in your tracks to pounce
& wreck your regal gait.

I am the tracks you left behind.
I am the flower in the wood.
I am the cloud drifting above.
I am the falling drops of rain,
tears shed for your lost love.
I am the babbling brook beckoning you:
Come, rest & drink.

Yet here,
rushing to the brink of a crashing waterfall
fallen over
(over you)
logic buried in the wild churning of this boiling need
I fear:

Do my whirling rapids ***** your prancing hooves?
Would you dash back to a forest cabin
where hunter hangs the most prized rack--
branches of a love once wild & free,
now tethered to a wall, a long forgotten trophy?

Do your startled nerves seek an escape
from the vision of my river rapids
falling, crashing, diving into your bedazzling eyes?
Ought I to withdraw that you might find a calm?
Might you eventually retrace those wary steps
back to my thirsty banks?

I wait
However long it takes,
I pause; I wait.

may your caution find its rest
may your heart soften a nest
may your wandering pause to bless
my waiting hungry days
with the trust of your warm rays.

in my waiting may these roiling surging waters of emotion
subside into a calm,
find stillness, peace
provide a placid place
for rest

I tried to write a poem
explaining how words fail me
describing how I love you
elaborating on
emotions, desires, passion, appreciation,
the many ways I value all of you.
I tried to artistically create
the essence of ALL you mean to me
I can’t.
You are indescribable
&
I love
all of you
&

Your imperfections fall in all the perfect ways.
My fantasies are memories and memories are fantasies with you.
You set my blood on fire but more—
You’ve been my friend.
My most broken screams have reached your ears.
Because of me, that sharpened boomerang of pain
has gouged your heart at times, and yet…
I know you’ll always care--that’s who you are.
I love being in love with you because
however hopeless the idea of "us" may be,
I still feel more filled with hope when dreaming of you
than when I try to crush this love.

The child asked:
“What new superpower
As yet unseen among the heroes known
Would you wish to wield?”

I contemplated, concluded, responded:
“Peace, Contentment, Happiness—
for myself & on those with whom I interact.”
Musing, “if my aura could do that,
Then perhaps wars would cease…”

Unimpressed & skeptical
the child named my likely nemesis
if I held such powers.

He’s probably right.
No matter the goodness we offer,
not everyone will accept.
Some just want the war.
Regardless, I’ll still take an aura strong
for peace

Surely I’ve said it all before
still I feel it every day & every night with such strength
I wish for fresh new ways to tell you & convince you
I miss you
I love you
I want you
I need you
Talk to me
Share with me
Show me
Tell me
Touch me
Hold me
Take me
Know me
Your voice
Your image
Your words
Your presence
Your touch
Your love
I burn for you

Nothing communicates all

If only I could fall into your embrace
maybe then you’d know
I am always all yours

I’ve always loved
every day & every way
you ripped through the safeguards
of my heart & soul

do it again
again & again

you will never grow old
you will never be repulsed
my love will always draw you
inside

ageless,
this weakness for you

return

Ah, Baby, it feels so good
but never is enough
I’m greedy, needy, wanting more
insatiable to my core

I need your strong body
need your electric skin
need your lips on my lips
eyes gazing deep within
I need your body in my body
your soul submersed in mine
I need our tongues embracing
words as intoxicating wine

Ah, Baby, a girl has needs
& it feels so good
but nothing feeds this hunger
soothes the famine in my heart
no thing, no being satiates desire
Satisfaction ONLY you impart

Ah, Baby, it feels so good
& better remembering you
relaxed now after, I wonder
Do you hunger for me too?

Which fruit do I desire?
the safe & bland, nutritious?
or the sweet & sour, succulent,
full-flavored
with danger, risks & hints of bitter?

Feed my flicking tongue the ****
Pucker my lips, Sparkling Serpent!
Raise me up
With your webbed glorious wings
Soar me high
Grant me harvest with a zing,
Pierce me with the blazing sword  
Tease with tempting words  
Then grace me with the safe and sweet
suckle me with your delights,
fine finish, soothing dessert
to settle once again this stormy passion.

The knowledge of your goodness
& your captivating evil, your naughty side
ignites my hunger for the nourishment
only You can satisfy.
So Mighty Winged Dragon,
take me in the garden
when night has fallen dark
Feed me of your fruits
until we see & KNOW & love  
that we are naked here together.

I, soul crafted from your side, request:
be my ride.
Bend with me that tree
of knowledge and that tree of life.
As they Merge, become as one  
let our souls & bodies, hearts Collide.
In this perfection we will no longer hide.

Come, my glittering Adym, Take my hand
We, Creators, can yet conjure
Perfection here within our garden mythical
Feast with me in Eden
with tastefully poisonous eaze,
I will be your soulmate & your temptress, Eve.