What I went through
makes me me
but what i went through
wont change who i will **BE

I have a challenge for you
to just be you
today I want you to go outside
with what you think is comfortable
I want you to do what you wanna do
and say what you wanna say
act how you wanna act
and if something hurts you don't look the other way
I have a challenge for you today
and don't just say ok
then walk away
I want you to do this challenge for me and be you today

I have a question for you all
have you ever wanted something more
have you ever looked to the floor and wished you had something more?
I'm guessing that is most of you
and don't feel bad I do it to
but i just wanted to tell you
you are amazing with what you have
and what you do
so one day of your whole life
just be you

She screamed and yelled
IM NOT MY SISTERS KEEPER
she is not my responsibility
it not my fault this is happening
I AM NOT MY SISTERS KEEPER
then she broke down to cry because that morning her sister died
if only she made sure her sister looked left and right
she says she not her keeper
but she wishes she would of been able to keep her
for a little bit longer
hold her in her arms
but now her sister is gone

Whispers
Some people say be proud
they believe in loud
but I believe in whispers
the last words of a man on his dyeing bed
the way those words stay in my head
the whispers of people talking behind my back
hurt me every time they giggle and laugh
the whispers of the girl who always is quite
the whispers your friend tells you in your ear
whispers are all I want to hear
loud is good
but whispers are better
because when someone whispers you always remeber

Have you ever stared at a blank page
wondering about what it will be
how you can change  it
to make something amazing
all it's possibility
to be great
and how it can change things
i think that is how God looks at me

It's harder than you think to be content
to be happy without looking at someone else
so if you ever have trouble
if you might think your ugly
just remember our differences aren't reasons to be jealous
but God's fingerprint

Courageous
You faced the world
you just smirked and smiled
then you walked and turned
people stared in disbelief
as you changed things
you look at things differently
and the people who pull you down
are doing it out of jealousy
because you are amazing
never forget
that you can change things
but they cant change you
you are a world changer
dont try to be cool
be you

There was this  girl named bella
she was about 12 and she was saved
it was heroes day at school
and she didn't want to look like a fool
so instead of writing about her real hero
she wrote about her dad
and that made everyone glad
but what she didn't realize
there was some thing
he was a dork I admit
but what wasn't afriad to tell you what he thinks
so when he got up he said
"my hero is jesus
because he saved me"
then bella's friends started laughing
and so did she
but inside she wished she had the guts
to go up on stage and talk about Jesus's love
like he

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
What would you do with no strings attachted
What would you do if you new no one would care
what you do if no one was thier
Who would you be  if you knew nobody would judge you?
Who would you be with no strings attachted
Who would you beif you new no one would care
Who would you be if no one was thier

You say your original
No one like you
But then I see you with straightened hair and Uggs for shoes
You squeeze into a too small shirt
Your jeans are just as tight
You take off your glasses and get contacts
Does that seem right?
The next day I see you
Your look completely changed
Your hair is died black and your nails look the same
Since when did you wear nail polish?
This is not who you use to be
Now every time we talk
We talk about me
You say my hair would look good straightened
You tell me I should wear Uggs
You say my face would look better with make up
When I say no
You get an attitude
Because I am not a copy cat like you
I see your new friends the ones with the same shoes the same colored hair
They changed you do you care
And when did you start to swear
You are exactly like them now
Me I'm not
So I get pushed out of your best friends slot
You talk just like them
You all walk in a line
What did you think I wouldn't notice?
And act like its all fine
Snap out of it
You must be under a spell
I know you all to well
I'm not telling you to ditch them
You have new friends that fine
I’m just telling you to stop being a copycat
Its time
Not its past time but it's not expired
You need to get a grip because this is not right
This is not you
Its societies bite
It’s got a grip on you and it’s holding on tight
Stop being a copy cat be you
All you have to do is be yourself
I'm so tired of this
People dyeing
People crying all to get accepted being a copycat
Isn’t all that great
When you’re a copycat you don’t get everything as gold on a plat
To be a comply cat you cant be real
Because you feel like the it girl all the time
And its hard everyday when you have to act like you’re in a play but your not
This is real life stop living a lie
All you care about is shoes
Next it’s boos
Here comes the drugs and now you’re the person locked up
Then your rejected like a shoe that doesn’t fit
And the it girl doesn’t have it
She has no friends or so it seems
Because she can always come back to me
But you forgot that
Your forgot the lessons you learned from others
How your aunt had a kid at 14
How your sister just became mean
How your brother is hooked on drugs
And soon you will be too
It's like a loose tooth
You want it there and you don’t care if what’s next is better
Being a copycat is like a loose tooth
You need to let it fall out
Or that is what you will do
You will fall out of a great life planned for you
But I don't what you to fall I will hold on
But I’m not the strong
You need to snap out of it just like I said because
Now you wanna starve to death
Better yet you want me to too
That’s not how I roll
That’s not how I do
Because I am not a copy cat
Like you

Welcome to the new age
-Imagine Dragons

Dear Bully**
You can not push me down
I am powerful
You will not make me fall
I am capable
You will not change my mind
because I am unchangeble
Unshakable
Relatable
Belivable
I believe in the Bible
NO POWER FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER
I will move past her
I will survive
thrive
and no one has pushed me down to this day
I always make a way
and you cant tell me who I am
For goodness sakes
I know who I am
and I am great

Your heart lies to you
I learned that the hard way
If you follow your heart you will get filled with grief and dismay
You heart aspires to be like someone else
Your heart wants to do things you will regret
Your heart is quick to speak and slow to listen
I hope your getting this because
Your heart won't listen
You could see someone
Who hurt you
and your heart tells you to hurt them back
but you shouldn't do that
you heart lies to you
and that's a fact

Have you ever wanted to know what you will be
have you ever wanted to see what God was planning
in due time He says
But I wanted it right then so
I  'put myself out there'
as some would say
I did things I'm ashamed of to this day
just to see if it was me
It wasn't reality
or it didn't seem
it was like watching a movie
a play back
one scene of someone else's life
not me
and when I woke up
out of my trance
I wished I was dead
became depressed
so I put on a face
of laughter and smiles
so people can see
but I still remember things
so I say to you
you people who are reading
Whatever you do make sure
you  mean it

Everyone wants a place of safety
a place where they can be who they want to be
with out judgement or anything
well poetry is my safety

This kid use to love to laugh
it was the only thing he had
that made him glad
and others to
up until he was 3
he only lived with his mommy
Then a man showed up and said he can call him daddy
this new man his mom marred
was making his life very happy
when he was in the room
the young kid would always start laughing
then one day that man left
without a goodbye on his lips
and he stopped laughing
better yet he stopped feeling
Some people say he had depression
but they aren't listening
he just needs some love and
maybe he will smile again
but for now the only time he smiles is in memories
because that is the only thing that makes him happy
He will only laugh when he sees his daddy

Now I just wanna know one thing
When do we draw the line between insanity
and creativity
because if sitting in your room for hours talking to your self is insane
then take me away
but I bet Fredick Duglas did the same thing
when he was in jail and the only person he talked to was the ceiling
and if banging your head against the wall means your crazy
then lock me up baby
because when I cant get the end to a poem right
it will keep me banging my head all night
and if thinking outside the box
and questioning exsistence
means your insane
I think your crazy because if that is insanity
we all are insane
people have come up with things
that make others look at your crazy
and you cant just tell me that me thinking
using oil is crazy
I'm losing my mind to insanity
the insane people of the world
are the people who change it
Harriet Tubman, Rosa Parks
Columbus, Ghandi
Martin Luther King, Jesus
Einstine, Mr.Peabody
and everybody
who has an idea  is insane
they are insanely great
because insanity is what changes things
Insanity makes the world a better place for you and me
so why don't
we instead of pushing the insane person aside
listen to what they have to say
You might learn something
and you may even realize being insane is a good thing

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
Would you be old enough to drive a car
old enough to sit in a bar
or would you simply be young
not caring about a thing
chasing imaginary butterflies
into an imaginary stream
would you be who you pretend to be
would you be over 30
would your back still be hurting or is it all an illusion
so I want you to come to a conclusion
from what you know so far
how old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

If life is so short why do we do so many things we don’t like
and like so many things we don’t do?
Why don't we take a chance and do what we can
to be more you
people
you aren't opening the doors God puts in your path
you aren't making your time here on earth last
you are just living day to day
so you can support a kid who will grow up ad do the same thing
people you aren't listening
man up
become something
because your clock is ticking
live to the fullest before
your clock stop ringing

People say they aren't racist and thats a flat out lie
I mean they no longer separate our kind
but they act like color doesn't survive
these people are color blind
they don't admit that I'm  different
and I'm tired of it
people take of your mask
and show your face
we are still people but we are people of a different race

Last year my mom died
and it opened up my eyes
and I fell this burning inside for the man who killed her
What gave him the right
to take my mothers life
he doesn't have the authority to do that
who is going to teach me all those things
my mother was suppose to have taught
why does he get to choose if i have a mother or not
It was late at night
the man who killed her was texting 'I love you' to his wife
and when he looked down to text this to her
his car didn't even have time to swerve
and my mom was pushing me across the street
because our bible study ran late that week
and she saw the car coming fast
she didn't even have time to reflect her past
because as soon as she saw him
she pushed my stroller out of the way
and that is why my mom isn't here today

She was 12 years old
She was really bold
and she never did what she was told
one day she was walking down the street when someone came up to her
now she wasn't alarmed
of course because she was strong
but she wasn't strong enough to stop the man when he grabbed her arm
She screamed and kicked and cried for her mom
but that screaming didn't last very long
because she was thrown in to the trunk
she hit the bottom with a thunk
and that little girl
with curly hair
was never seen again
then right down the road
right at the end
a 3 year old girl walked up to the man
and asked where are you taking my friend?

Anyone can write a deep poem
I can write about sucide
or texting while you drive
this thought just came to my mind
because one of my friends
new to this site
she wrote a poem that got 17 likes
and I was jealous
because I cant write as good as her
I really wish I could
because I want that
I want people to like my poems
and appreciate me
like they do her
to top it off
she is younger than me
and it makes me feel
like I can't write poetry
and then I thought of stoping
I mean what is the point of writing
if your writing
isn't the best
what is the point of joining this contest if your gonna lose
what is the point of that
I really want to end this poem on a high note
talk about how I changed my mind and I will gloat
I just don't feel like it
I feel like my poems
aren't good enough
that i should change how i write
that my poems should be more like stories
and not conversations with my readers
some of you might be sayin " I cant believe her"
because you think I'm doing this to get people to tell me
my writing is great
but Im not
I don't wanna be put on the spot
I don't wanna make you say
Your writing is great
you don't have to say anything
I just wanted to tell you how I feel
I just wanted to tell you what I thought about my poetry

I was in a fight with this girl
her hair was down in curls
and she had an attitude
I don't know how the fight started
but i know how it ends
I remember her asking me  who do I think I am
I remember laughing as I coming up with a come back
but then I thought
Why bash this chick when I could teach her a lesson
I said
I am a girl
I am smart and funny
talented and gifted
loving and loved
And I have faith
I am not a fighter
But I guess that means I'm a punk
I'm not perfect
and I don't pretend I am
I don't have a man
I can do a hand stand and I am amazing
what is the point of this?
Why are you judging me
what is the reason you say all of these things to me
to try to hurt me
try to get me to stop what I do
and no I'm not jealous of you
to tell the truth
I don't care what you say
it just rolls off me like butter on pancakes
but i want to ask you this one thing
Why do you insist on hurting
people like me
schools call us the victims
of you the bully
but that is not what I think
I know the person who is really hurting is the bully
because that is the person who was hurting before me
and I know why you like detention
because you don't wanna go home
and because of that you want people to think this school you own
because you don't want them to see you through your disguise
see through you accent
cursing and lies
see through you hurting them
so they don't know you are about to cry
you don't want them to see you
because you are scared what will happen when they do
so when I look in your eyes you know what i see
I see little  kid who isn't happy
and puts on a front for people to see
people like me
you picked me to bully because you see something diffrent in me
I saw and I can see  
who you are
and you are just a child who wasn't loved
well here I am right now to give you a hand
I will be your one and only TRUE friend
I won't friend you because I'm scared of you
like these punks
I friend you because I want to know you
the real you
then I put my hand out as easy can be
then she turned around and walked away from me
I did the right thing
because the next day at lunch she sat next to me
what a bully
People you need tom realize
bullies aren't people you just put on the top of your to do list to stop
It's not a war to be fought
and I know that is not what you are taught
but just look for yourself
I know they hurt the victims everyday
and in no way am I trying to say that is ok
I just want to bring to your attention
that maybe the victim isn't the only one that needs a convenction
the bullies are the people who are hurting
and instead of pushing them aside and telling them they are wrong
why don't we just extend our arm and give them a chance
when someone pushes them to the side who will that help
they will feel hurt then hurt someone else
so why instead of trying to ignore their problem
we try to fix it
Because the victim isn't the only person who has to live with it
some say they deserve it
but they don't
they are just kids
who don't know
and when this happens
and your astounded beyond belief
when you see there is actually a person behind that bullying
I will reply
what a bully
because that is all you use to see

People always tell me what I should be
They tell me that I should just be me
but they have an idea of what I should be
I like a lot of things other people like
that doesn't mean I'm not original
I am surrounded by people just like me
so of course we aren't gonna see things differently
and yes we finish our sentences
and I was like this before I met them
I was blessed to be friends them
but now people say I am trying to copy
but all I did was friend people like me
People who liked the same things
and our friendship is amazing
then you come along
all by your self
screaming your original like no one else
and so am I
but I found people I can relate to
I want you to too
because being original is great
but having no friends is not
saying your original and don't give talking to people a second thought
Your clothes aren't comfortable
Your shoes don't fit right
so you are trying to be original and thats not right
I would like to suggest a new saying
instead of saying lets be original
i think we should say
be yourself and path your own way
You can be yourself if the people around you are like you or not
It doesn't matter if your 'original'
you know  there is not that many bands
someone is gonna like the same band as you
that doesn't me your not original
that is just a person you can relate to
so people stop trying to be original
try to be yourself
because i don't think it matters if your like someone else

No one knows me
I hide behind shadows
the real me is never showing
and whenever I want to give people a glimpse
they say im not acting like 'me' today
What they really mean is
I''m not acting like they want me to act
I'm not 'acting black'
and im not like they want me to be
and I don't wanna change anything
I like not being real
Then I don't have to feel
I can stand back and watch my life
like a 2-hour movie
Around certian friends I'm cool
but that is only one part of me
I show people diffrent parts of me
and they all know a diffrent me
And im so caught up in all of these personalities
I dont know who I am anymore
I dont have a plan anymore
I dont have a me anymore
I am just a narrator
Watching the characters of my life
watching the diffrent me's roam around and smiling bright
yet im not there
nothing behind my smiles its not that i dont care
its the fact that I AM NOT THERE
Who I am
I don't know anymore
my real personality got lost in the world
and I don't know if I can find it
I don't know If i can look in the mirror and see one person
I don't even know if it is really me looking
I don't know If 'I' even exist
I don't know who the real me is
I don't know if there is a real me
I don't know me
I don't know
And I don't want to

Dear bully*,
I dont cry because you don't like me
I dont cry because you lied
I dont cry because I'm hurting inside
Even though I should
I cry because you aren't happy
I cry because you cant love yourself and so you hurt others
I cry because of the little kids who look up to you
I cry because I see your future if you stay on this path
I dont cry because I'm sad
I cry because no one has cried for you
and told you they love you
because if they have you wouldn't try and hurt me
but your hurting yourself
So when you see me crying
and you start to laugh
call me weak and cowardly
and act like your all "bad"
just remember one thing
I will remember it too
I dont cry because I'm sad
I cry because no one has ever loved you

Sincerely,
      *The Victim

Sitting alone
Reflecting
Thinking about my life
My fight
I fight
everyday
of my life
is it worth it?
living to fight
I just don't see the light
at the end of this long tunnel
Then I found the fun of life
I realized the greatness of it all
life isn/t just a free fall
until we hit the bottom
its more like a roller coaster
with turns
and loops and screams and laughs
I wanna live
and laugh this is the only thing I have ever had
I have found the joy of life at last

I know the maker of all things
he is greater than all things
he wants to be loved by all things
He lives in me
He he is amazing
He is the God for me

She writes
She writes because nothing else in her world seems right
So the only she knows how to get it out
Is to write
So she spends days
And night
Holding a pencil and she writes
Writes poems and stories
That is really deep
In those words is a person only that piece of paper meets
And when people ask her is she is ok
The answer is in the poem she wrote today
Because she lives to write
That is how she tells people things
To bad most of her poems
People have never seen
She writes and writes
Continuously
And that girl is me

We are under attack
bombs of heart attacks
both emotional and real
We are under attack
with suicide and bullying
people turning on us like that
We are under attack
yet all we do is fight each other
We don't stand tall and last long
we fight and die for not
because we cant believe
that we are under attack
all we care about is the fact
that your neighbor just called you fat
but what you didn't know
was her dad is dying of cancer
she is trying to find the answer and you are mad
because she called you fat
WE ARE UNDER ATTACK
and I realized that
we need to take our guns
and point them at the real enemy
not each other
listen to me
WE ARE UNDER ATTACK
and its not gettin better
people are gettin sicker
and no one fights for that
WE ARE UNDER ATTACK
its time we fight back

You have heard creepy stories about zombies right?
How the follow you and stock you at night
and how they attack at first sight
try to bring down anything of light
and thing truly living
like parasites
I know zombies
some of them use to be my friends
they were like me till they got bite
then they turned
they became like every other girl
I call them zombies
because they simply follow what others do
and live on trying to turn others
they steal
lie
eat
but they are hurting
you have to remeber that these zombies are still people
Unlike what the stories say they can be changed back
These real world zombies are fakers and thats a fact
my only question is do you believe that
because they are all around you
mostly at jobs or schools
on tvs
the internet
most people define them as cool
so they try to be zombies and let them selves be bit
then turn like the rest of it
and it happens to most
but not to all
there are some who refuse to fall
refuse to turn
refuse to be like everyone else
I'm a zombie fighter
I need your help
I need you to be original
and speak your mind
don't just flow with the tide
release that creative person inside
tell you ideas
and always ask why
we are zombie hunters
and we will fight

Did  you know that any building you see
can be torn down easily
if its built on the wrong soil
If its foundations wrong it will fall down withot a fight
Like Goliath on the awesome night
And what happens if our foundation is not in Christ
We will not thrive
To be what we can be
We will be mediocre and feel pain constantly
Those superstars not in Christ behind close doors they are not alright
They will never feel the joy  through Christ
They willl never be able to say
Because I have faith in him I know I can survive
They suffer and crumble till they die
And then people talk about their awesome lives
You know who is awesome?
Me
Because I have faith in Christ and I believe I fell joy
Ad I can scream Hallejuah
And know what it means
I believe in a God above all things
Who can move the mountians
Without t0ouching a thing
Who knows what I can be
And you too
Because he is the one who created you
So what happens when a car
Forgets how its made
They will try to fast
Then fail everytime since that is not their way
What they are menant to be
God made you and me
He has a plan of what we should be
I don’t know what it is exactly
But its amazing
How do I know?’I believe I have faith
That is one of the amazing things that make me me
I’m awesome
And I have my life based in Christ
My heart
My soul longs for him
And if some young man wants my heart they can go to jesus to get it
Because I believe
And I know having my life bound in Christ feels amazing
I know it sounds captive controlling and crazy but its not
Its beautiful
Loving someone and knowing someone else loves you too
Having that assurance that someone is always watching you
Guiding you
Helping you
Picking you up when you fall
Knowing souome loves you faults and all
And always forgive
That is who Jesus is
And Im based in him
Because I don’t wanna fall
And I stand tall
You should come stand too
Do what John 3:16 tells you to do
And you will be renwed
Try to make your foundation Jesus
Pray that you love Jesus and believe it
And you will not fall likte the rest
You will soar
Have you ever wanted something more?
Well that something more is jesus
He is there for you
He wants you
Hes got you
Trust him cause he loves you

I want a man
someone to hold onto
somone I can trust
I will never give up
until I find the one

He doesn't understand how much I try
try to do things right
make him see me fully
that I am not completely
foolish
I do everything
somehow  he doesn't see
see me for me
and all of the things
I do to make him believe
never come out how it should be seen
thanks everyone but me
so now I am broken
I tried to stay strong
but it broke me
he never saw how much I tried
to stay strong for him
keep everything ok
But today was my breaking day

Aren't mirrors amazing
You can look in and see your surroundings
We don't all see the same things
When I look in I see beautiful me
I see a girl with long hair
and brings smiles where every she is seen
she changes the room
She looks amazing with her curly hair
but she always straightens it
I think the mirror told her to
But her hair looks pretty straightened too
She always has killer clothes even though they aren't name brand
but they don't have to be
she looks amazing in jeans
if there from walmart or aberocrombie
She has 297 followers on twitter
that have never heard her talk
she is always on her phone
and never finds time for home
she doesn't talk in real life
not that much
online is her whole life
maybe online is changing her view
maybe if she puts the phone down
she will realize she is beautiful to
when she is sad about how she is fat
It brings a smile to m face
because she doesn't realize how great
she is
I hope one day she can take the blind fold down
and she will finally realize
she isn't the ugliest girl in town

People annoy me
especially girls
spend an hour in the morning
to get rid of your beautiful natural curls
while others do the opposite
spend hours in the morning to make their hair straight
Im tired of it
Everyone trying to be like someone else
Not realizing someone is trying to be like you
but you don't believe its true
right not you may be thinking
I know people like that but I'm talking to you
Your living in a fantasy
A world where you are ugly
Step into light
Out of your fantasy so you can see
and believe
So you can see for yourself
why you are beautiful to everyone else.

Days on repeat
the people I see
The songs I sing
The fake smiles people give when they see me
Years on repeat
Birthdays come and go
X's on a calendar
tics and docs from a clock
Then he came along
He changed my view
Opened a door to something new
With new songs
and things to do
Those X's on my calendar
Mark all the fun days I have had with you
Then my fairy tale came to and end
We a group of kids decided to drive
while texting their friends
and now my life is on repeat again.