I refuse to let you
pull me down

When I think of you
I'll put on a happy song
and dance

When I think of you
I'll paint a picture of a sunset

When I think of you
I'll belt out show tunes

When I think of you
I'll put on a funny movie
and laugh until my sides hurt

I won't collapse into tears
I won't whisper your name
into the night
I won't stop eating
I won't stop sleeping

When I think of you
I will fight your memory

I refuse to let you pull me down

You're gone
and you're happy
and I'm still just...here

If the written word
ceased to exist
I would end with it

Surrounded
by bright holiday joy
But I just feel
e  m  p  t  y

I can sit here
and roll my eyes
and pretend like it doesn't hurt
But the truth is
I'm *heartbroken