Trapped inside my mind, I’ve been a prisoner all this time
Our faces are made of glass and none of the reflections are mine
And we’re still living our lives as I watch the echoes of our dreams
Shatter against the mountains of our will
Nothing is ever as it seems
We all hide from our dreams

What am I
Try as I might
I cannot find where they left the light

Faces painted black and white but all the colors bleed
We’re having a masquerade won’t you come and see
All the pretty masks they hide what we can’t understand
They hide the monsters inside from all we have planned
We are never as we seem
We will always hide from our dreams

What am I
Try as I might
I cannot find where they left the light
I will paint my face black and white
As I watch the colors bleed into me

If age is a state of mind,
you made an old baud of me
before my time
You'll get no complaints
on that front
The one last thing I require is your presence
Are you asking me to believe,
what I can't see?
Or just to complete the work on the Bridge?

so it’s on, with the shallow breathing
in these pools
that curdle lightning
as it falls; emblazoned -
from an angry squall,
smack dab in the middle of our
War on Things.

so it’s on with the curse that Meaning
forgot,  in a tantrum
of unbeleaguered
Serenity,

a quiet sort of madcap in
a straw bonnet.
because Life is the Verb
that you’ve frozen by
Hand.

till it was priceless.

Anxiety eats all my power
It breaks me down into small specks
Spinning my thoughts through each hour
As each idea then disconnects

I bite all my nails down to skin
Hoping to gain some relief
I clench my jaw tightly again
So hard that I crack all my teeth

I feel my brain doing back flips
As it tosses around and it turns
Eating mushrooms to gain short trips
And then coming down to return

Drugs are the one thing that calm me
But prescriptions just ain't my style
So I score them back in an alley
And remain being able to smile

I rip all my hair out by the root
And peel off the top of my head
Hoping I'll be able to reboot
And remember all lost things I've said

If i could stop being so lazy and dumb
That would be nice.
Because my dreams are huge
And i am nowhere near it.
For each and every time that i have failed,
I hurt so much
I never really liked to show it
Because its one of my biggest weeakness
Insecurity
Embarrassment.


But there is no one to blame
but me.

When will i ever achieve
Or will i not?