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Sep 2017 · 545
Horror in my heart
Ranger Sep 2017
Baby you are the one thing..
Like freddy kruger
You are in my dreams
Like pin heads nails
Your always on my mind
Like leather face
I really don't know who I am..
..With out you

I guess what I'm saying is
I love you and even Jason machete could not cut us apart
Jun 2017 · 423
Nerd rant
Ranger Jun 2017
My sabina my love my little spoon. I hope you are having wonderful dreams of a sweet loving wolf and an innocent little girl he takes in to his dark den and keeps as his mate forever. I want to tell you about tonight. How I saw wonder woman and how I wish you where there. How they have these seats that drop the arm rests and we can cuddle the entire time. No I want to tell you about wonder woman and more importantly I saw you in her. She's kind humble brave talented speaks multiple languages and all those things are you.. it's the fact she saw good in men kind of the way you see the good in me.. and she fights for love. I see so much of you in her. And when I saw my self.. I relate the best to superman.. even tho I often get compared to batman. Superman has no home. Can't talk to any one about his past. He's alone. He does the best he can but no one can know him. Other then wonder woman and they fall in love. He inspires hope in her and she inpires love in him. I wonder do I give you hope babe? Do I make you feel strong and proud? Because honestly you make me feel like I can fly. That I can carry the world on my back and that what I do matters. You take that lonely man in a cap and you make him proud to say he is your superman. And you are my wonder woman. The most wonderful woman I have ever met and I love you. I hope my nerd rant made you smile I hope it made you blush and I hope it tells you how much of my world you mean to me. My love
Ranger Mar 2017
Why is there hope
That thing that seems to linger
It ties me down and binds
It's warm embrace
Heaven to some
Hell to others

Why is there hope
When all seems lost
Like a dream of things to come
For the future and for life
Slowly decaying
Twisting in a heart like a knife

Why is there hope
A curse that can't be released
When hope becomes pain
A hot coal in my hand
When it's time will I be free
Cold and fades

Because hope dies last
Sep 2016 · 540
so turns out...
Ranger Sep 2016
So with raging chest pain...
Ended up in the hospital.
Take my tests.
Look inside me.
This knife only I feel.
So this is it?
I always knew I'd destroy my self
So still getting tested. Best case.. hurnia.. worst case cancer. Waiting *****
Sep 2016 · 467
11 am
Ranger Sep 2016
It's 11 am
...
I'm fighting depression
....
I'm loosing...
Aug 2016 · 499
screaming skull
Ranger Aug 2016
My head is a tomb of memories
Pain and sorrow
Walk these hallways
I can't forget the wrongs I've done
And the the times I failed
Be Stronger Faster Smarter
The demands of my past rage
But I can't I'm just me
I'm just me...
So my mind is haunted
My so lost in the depths of this hell
So my skull screams
You failed

And I whisper

I'm just me..
Aug 2016 · 301
Storm I am
Ranger Aug 2016
Sitting here
I think "Who am I"
Nameless..
Faceless...
Hopeless....?
I'm a nightmare
The disaster
The thing people run from
Where only angels dare run to
I never amounted to much
My legacy is ash and memory
Dark things shifting in my soul
This mask this composure
Falling like dust to the floor
Scared and broken the feeling washes away
Ruby Red and hair black and smooth as jet.
This is who I am
Rage and force
The storm heart
A demon wolf in sheep clothes
Some times I forget
That I am..
Chaos and proud
Mar 2016 · 337
Untitled
Ranger Mar 2016
Dark creature
How do I say
Longing
And cold
This thing
You have become
Brutal
Fighter
This is not you
Not what you were
Scared and in pain
Hurting every day
This was not life
Not your way
But lost
And alone
This was what you
Had to do
To get through
Day after day
I forgive you
Feb 2016 · 328
scars and storys
Ranger Feb 2016
What does not **** you
Scars you
I lesson carved in flesh and soul
The pain fades leaving a road map
of life
Tales of adventure and broken hearts
And the memory of days long past
And I say
This THIS IS ME
and no one can steal this
I am scared
I am proud of the failures I have made
and the mistakes I have gotten up from only
to make again
~
My Scars
My Story
My Life
~
In the end I smile
And remember the little things
That makes my life me
Sitting here thinking of my life. My past and my collection of storys written in my skin and soul and remembering little things. And even some days I miss little things I know I am on top of the world because I never gave up on my self and those who believe in me. I have scars. they will never heal but the pain is gone and honestly I am better for it
Jan 2016 · 344
My failure
Ranger Jan 2016
My failure
My fault
I never knew I could fall so far
And destroy my own world
Why and how's a blur
But the pain remains
The Pain worse then any other
Is the fear of loosing you
Your love and
My world
Sabina my love
I truely do not deserve you
Jan 2016 · 246
frame of emotion
Ranger Jan 2016
Of all the words to say
Of all the things I can do
A whisper
Or a painting of you
In the end
A single thought
A frame of emotion
Love
To you
Sabrina
Jan 2016 · 295
Sometimes
Ranger Jan 2016
Sometimes
I see something
That reminds me of you
A memory of your blue eyes
Invading my mind
And I look back at my path
The one we walk
And I smile remembering you
Not as a stray thought almost forgotten
Nor the broken heart of a bleeding sunset
But as a friend who once walked beside me
Long ago
Dec 2015 · 242
Black blood
Ranger Dec 2015
Blade dragging across my flesh
Faster and faster
Swift and steady
Not feeling a thing
Dancing as it tares my skin
Drops of blood
Like tear drops tricking down
Black blood
Cold and dead
With out feeling
No pain or joy
A hallow doll
Able to feel nothing
But relief
Dec 2015 · 301
grave born heart
Ranger Dec 2015
The pity of a thing so cold
A whistling wind flowing through its
Lifeless core
A howling scream no one hears
Speaking of life lost that never was
An emptiness that will never be filled
No one sees in the chest the rot
Of memory's once loved
Now turned poison
Withered and dark
Lifeless and cold
No one sees the heart
That is dead

The grave born heart
Sep 2015 · 865
Wolf cry of love
Ranger Sep 2015
How do I pamper the one I love.
Singing my heart to her.
How do I tell her how my heart cry for her touch.
Her embrace.
No.
Like a wolf does cry to the moon.
Who's sorrow matched only by his passion
This is how his wolf sings.
This is how his heart does cry.
Three words.
So innocent
So pure
I love you
Feeling like I wanna share a little tonight
Sep 2015 · 377
drifting - where I belong
Ranger Sep 2015
Drifter
The nameless shadow
Watching but never seen
Ghost of man
His heart
Cold

Where do you go
And what do you seek
Does any thing hold you
To this world
Or the next

No more he cry
No more will I be
Simply with out purpose
Alone in the dark
Homeless

This world
May not have a place
Or reason for me to simply be
But no more will I be
Just a ghost

With these hands
And with a heart of stone
I will chisel a place in the earth
For me to be as I am
Home

This feeling
What I have done
The rush of pride as I see
This life I have made
I have it.. finally

A home
So all my life been a military brat and a drifter. Moving every 6 months or so. I finally bought my first house and working on it really hard to make it mine
Jul 2015 · 393
The doll
Ranger Jul 2015
Laying here my mind a blaze
What is real and what is fake
The answers never coming

The night slipping away
Hours seem to tick by
The sun slowly setting

Life feels so plastic now
Is this the way I was before
Cold and isolated feeling lost

I remember this chill
Pain feeling so cold
The cut and burns

Simple marks to my flesh
Offering no thrill no rush
Next to the screaming pain

Deep in my soul crying to be heard
Is my world. No life no death.
Just the cold chill of what ever this is

I remember now what I am
A doll heartless and tortured
In a heap on the floor

My strings cut
My place forgot
Kicked aside

My world lifeless
A plastic doll
With nothing inside

But a cry wanting to be heard
My spirit is breaking again
Jul 2015 · 541
For you my dear
Ranger Jul 2015
I hate writing these. This will be the third time. This will be the last time. Summer, My dear summer. I know things got messed up bad. I know I was at the center of it all. Now people say I don't care about you. About your happiness. That all I do is try and manipulate you. That I have always just tried to use you. That I never loved you. This hurts me more then you could ever know.  I know this is going to be long. I need to say it tho and I need to say it right.

We have been together as friends for as long as I could remember. its now been 5 years I known you. You where 14 and your Dad had just died recently. You where there, in Gypsys room. She brought me there to meet this family. There was you and Lexi. And you where shy at first. I didn't really know what to say.  You where scared. Scared of most men for good reason. But after a while you came and you pounced on me and cuddled me. This is where it all began. Do you remember?

You where so sweet and so innocent and so wonderfully helpless. It didn't take long to love you. And I don't think it took long for you to love me. I would come online and I would count 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. and there you where calling me to spend time with you. You where family. You where my friend. You where so amazing. At that time I was in a dark place. And so where you. I was full of anger and I was cold. But when I saw you smiling that all melted away. The only time I was angry around you is where I was watching people be mean to this girl with a huge heart.

But years past and things changed. Things grew. Friends came friends went. I was there night after night talking to you. Picking you up when you where broken. I was there when you smiled and I was there when you cried. When you where broken and all you could do was cry and begged for death I was there. All I ever wanted was to be there for you. And tho it killed us. We survived. And I may not be proud of my self for much but if its true you survived because of me I am proud I saved an amazing soul. The world is a better place with you in it.

I have had the privilege of watching you grow. And when you became older and more matured so did our feelings. Some if not every one thinks that's a line we shouldn't have crossed. I could not help it. And neither could you. But I did fall in love with you and I know you did love me. We became more. Some thing I never knew two people really could be. I am glad I could find that in you. Thank you for loving me. For making me feel like I was worth it. You Are such a big part of my heart and I know it hurts like hell to have the person who made such a big impact and who has such a big part of it to not be there. But it is what it is.

I know I have not been perfect. I know I made a lot of mistakes over the years. You say I am human, that I need to let my self forgive my self. I know your right but when you hurt some one you care about deeply it slowly eats you alive. I remember the day Gypsy said I hurt you. That I made you hurt your self for what I did... I was in a dark place.. I was thinking of destroying my self when you came back. Now I am being told all I do is hurt you. That all I do is damage you. That I made you feel like you where not good enough. That you felt like I piece of meat, Summer I am sorry I am sorry for all the times I hurt you and made you feel like less.  I wanted you to feel like a queen, an angel like the drop of sunshine.

You are beautiful. You really are. You have the biggest blue eyes and the most wonderful smile and when you got butterfly's and how your cheeks would burn. I would count and tell you when I hit 1 you would smile and you would beg me to stop. I wanted to see you smile. I wanted to make you happy because when you where happy nothing else seemed to matter. Please be happy again babe. Like that. Like how you would get all excited I would sit up late at night and write you long winded letters to you telling you how I feel. Because you made me feel so much when all I knew before was pain. Thank you for that. Thank you for giving me some thing good. Some thing to remember.

I hope in the years to come I left you with some thing good to remember. I hope some thing I did mattered to you. I know I taught you to fight and I tried to show you how to be like ice like me and just shake it off. Maybe I finally succeeded. But I hope you have some thing better. Some thing good.  I wish I could have done more, had more time to share things with you. I wanted to take you to art classes coz I know how you loved to watch me draw and how hard you where on your self. I wish we could have gone swimming under the moon light like you wanted. And even tho there are so many things left undone I hope I pray I left you with some thing good. Some thing to hold on to and be proud of. A happy memory. A story or a song.

I know I am braking a lot of promises I made to you. I promised I would always be there. I promised to keep fighting for you. I promised I would always do my best and to never loose sight of you and to not let you be the one who got away. You made me promise these things to you. You did. I know I can't. I can't hold you back I can't try and keep you. You have things you need to do. You have your family there and tho I was going to move there to be with you I know that I could never be a part of that. I promise tho. I don't hate you. I never could. I promise that I will always keep a little bit of your love forever in my heart and I promise even tho life is not the way we planned it last year I promise I will do my best to be the best I can and try to be happy.

Summer, I took you under my wing. I cradled you and I put you back together after all the pain you had been put through. That is how I know you inside and out. That is why I know you when no one else seems to. You always said I gave you a bit of my soul to fix your own. I could not have given it to any one better. I know you will make me proud. You do make me proud baby girl. You came so far and your going to be a nurse. Your going to be making other people so much better. I am proud of you. But for you to do that I need to let you out from under my wing. I need to let you fly away. So fly baby. Fly as high as you can and never look back. Sing your heart out and be the good woman I have watched you grow in to. I will not be there to catch you tho, and you need to learn to pick your self up when you fall. I know you can. I know you don't need me to do that any more. You are strong. And I know your brave and you have teeth to fight with. I know, I have seen it. I have felt it from time to time. I know you are going to be ok.

If you ever get lonely my spirit is with you. And you always miss me remember.. what was it you said, we are under the same sky.. or was it stars. And one day when the day comes and I am dust in the wind I will look down on you and smile. Who knows maybe in the next life we will find each other again, maybe we can do it right.

I may not be able to hold you like I wanted to do with my own arms. I may not ever look at you with my own eyes. I wish it wasn't that way. I could have held you and shown every one that I truly do care for you. And tho we need to say goodbye I remember we always said forever and for always.

I will miss you. You where such an important part of me I know you will make me and every one around you proud.

Good bye my little fox you will be missed
Forever and for always
Danny
I am sorry I ever hurt you. I won't any more. What they say about me is wrong I hope this can show you that. So I am saying good bye.
Jul 2015 · 366
broken glass world
Ranger Jul 2015
On  this day
In some ways
I feel like a monster
Or maybe a ghost

Looking in on this world
Made of glass and light
Reaching out slowly
I touch it's delicate  surface

Entranced by its beauty
This glass figure I am draw to
I try and lift in to the light
The glimmer making me smile

Slowly it breaks
I try to stop it
Panic with heart racing I struggle
"No God please no"

What have done
I destroyed this beautiful world
That I held so dear
Is no more then dust

With blood weeping from shards
And tears from my eyes
I lay in the shadows
Looking at the world I once had

Made of glass and light
I held it to close
And held it to tight
Leaving it dust and shards

I am the destroyer of worlds
Of lives and of love
To be the monster
This is my fault...

...this is my fate
I told you I was a monster the day I met you...

Trying to explain how I feel
Jul 2015 · 240
2 words 2 you
Ranger Jul 2015
I'm sorry
I deserve your 2 words after every thing I have done to/for you
Over the years
Jul 2015 · 488
This little fox
Ranger Jul 2015
There is this little fox I found. Dying and hurt. Ripped to bits bleeding out. I saved the poor little thing. Picked it up and pampered it. Stitched it up. Gave it love and attention and fed it. Watched it grow. Then one day it ran away. Sadly it was gone. I cared about her she was my friend. Now this is the tragic bit. It comes back scratching at my door. Some times scared some times hurt and in pain. I try to pick it up and I will take care of it. Poor thing. More then any thing I hate seeing her suffer. Then with out warning she will rip in to my hand drawing blood. Does she forget I was there for her. Does she not care after she gets what she wants. She races off leaving me bloodied. But yet she comes back scratching at that door. Crying. I miss you. And I care but honestly after all I did and all we went through I wish I could open that door.. but I know it meant some thing to me. I'm sorry I could not make it all better little fox. I feel like I failed you.
Some people didn't like the story I wrote before. Maybe this one that's a little more Accurate is better. Happy birth day btw little fox
Jul 2015 · 288
Untitled
Ranger Jul 2015
The night
Young and adventures
The fun began
One sip two sip
More more
Slowly loosing my self
More more more
Deeper and deeper
The man slides away
Making way for a beast
Sink the wolf comes out
She sees me
Another wolf
Seeking me
Hungrey and ready
She pounces
Pushing me to the wall
Angel I cry
Am i weak
Am i the fighter i thought i was
A half bottle of taquila
A full bottle of lonelyness
How strong am I
How much am i the spirit of truth
And how much the wild animal of passion
Who is stronger

Time will tell
had a fun night. Smashed off my *** and got pounced by a few ladys lol... Btw she had my name in  Morse code on her bracelet is that crazy?
Ranger Jul 2015
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naïve
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird,
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd but don't be naïve
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
Well, it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naïve
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me, inside of me 

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
I’m only a man looking for a dream
I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
And it's not easy.
It's not easy to be me
I have been called people's hero. That I save the. But I feel so alone alot of the tIme
Jul 2015 · 222
forgot and wondering
Ranger Jul 2015
Do you ever wonder if

You will ever forget

About people the way

They forgot about you
Jul 2015 · 281
No more
Ranger Jul 2015
Had time to think. I'm taking my life back. I had enough being used. I have had enough simply taking what I'm given. I'm done having people come in to my life take what they can and run off. From now on I am looking out for my self. I am going to be happy. And people can get with that program or get the **** out.
Jul 2015 · 263
crawling despair
Ranger Jul 2015
As the days move on
Life feels like a dream

As the joy fades away
This dream becomes a nightmare

With out passion
And with out purpose

This cold feeling
Crawls over me

How is a person to fight it
When there is no fight  left in there heart

So now I wait
In its cold dark grip

Waiting for what?
Salvation or death

I do not know
Ranger Jul 2015
*** i cant i want to be with you and your all sleeping and **** i want you Danny i want you i want to be with you, i want to be close to you so close to you, i want to lick your lips and softly kiss you and hold you and hug you, and nuzzle into you, i want to love you, i want to love you in all the ways that are possible, i need you, i need you so much, you have made me fall in love with you just by being you, i love you and i cant believe it took me 3 years and several bad relationships to see that, but im glad you kissed me im so glad you kissed me Daniel, you made my life so much better the past year has been better then the past 4 and i cant ever thank you enough, because you saved me, and even tho we'v been threw hell and back, were still together and were strong, and i dont ever want to loose that, i dont want to be that stupid couple that promises that they'll be together forever and end up breaking up, i Want to be with you i need to be with you, you make up such a big part of who i am, Yes i have my stupid little i want to die moments but thats just cause... i have issues ... and **** but so does everybody else and i cant ever express to you how much you mean to me, i really cant, i love you so much oh my gosh i love you and i cant wait to be with you, im waiting im waiting for that day when you'll here i swear i will like cling to you to the point you'll get so annoyed by me, you wont want to be around but you know what i dont care, i love you and its the one thing that iv been waiting for my hole life, yes granted im only 17 but you know what thats to many years, i finally found my soul mate, the one i want to be with and i swear to you ill be the most loyal wife you'll ever have i love you, i love you i love you i love you i cant ever tell you enought how much i love you, im sorry for going on and on and on but sometimes i just have to tell you how i feel regardless of how much it is and yea, and i do recall that one time when you told me how you love it when i love went or how ever you said it but *** i love you so much, your my forever and my for always i promise <3 till death do us part, but not even death will keep me from you <3 just.. delay us alittle, im not letting go i wont let go i cant let go your just so much of me that if i were to ever let go, there wouldnt be anything left of me... BUT im not so that **** can go to hell... but i think imma stop writing and i really wish you were awake to read this and maybe you are idk but... i love you... <3 my Daniel Bishop Allan <3 i love you, Forever And For Always <3
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~•Foxy-Girl•~
I lost her a long time ago but I found this. This is my last gift to you. I hope this helps you remember the beauty of the world. And with a hope and a prayer that you can find a love like ours. Fighting to be together. Who loves you like a treasure and makes you smile even when there is nothing to smile about. This is my gift. A wanting you to find a love like this.
Good bye my long lost love. You will always have a place in my heart
Jul 2015 · 265
The day that never came
Ranger Jul 2015
She sat at the window
Staring out at the world
They told her one day
The world would be right

Waiting at the window
Rain ran down the glass
The the tears on her cheeks
Silently as she watched

When will it be ok to feel
She watched though pains
Of glass and tear filled eyes
For the day that never came
Jul 2015 · 327
dead inside
Ranger Jul 2015
This poison
I feed my soul
Like blood dripping
Burning my heart
Killing all that is weak
Making me empty
Dead inside
Tell all that is left
Is pain and darkness
This is me
Because when dead inside
Your world is not alive
Jul 2015 · 332
Untitled
Ranger Jul 2015
These red eyes
Crimson tide
A blood wake
Rage and contempt
Hatred
War
Firing through my vain
A hunger
To fight
These red eyes
Jun 2015 · 255
Look to the stars
Ranger Jun 2015
Look to the stars
Broken bits of light.
Sparkling in the dark
Like glimmers of hope
In the darkest moments
Some where there is a spark
Burning in your heart
So lift that chin
And have them guide you
on your way
And know there is hope
When you look to the stars
This one's for any one who needs hope in the darkest moments
Jun 2015 · 319
The monster
Ranger Jun 2015
For years I thought me a monster
Hideous and cold
The creature deep inside I locked away
I fought it every day
I Know this creatures name and it is fear
Acting like it was not there
But that is the way fear is, justified and renamed
Hiding in the shadows
But this thing I was afraid of what was is
and now I know
I was afraid of me and to be happy
And tho I am afraid
I can now face that monster
Jun 2015 · 320
When dreams die
Ranger Jun 2015
I think I have backed my self in to a corner. I'm not normal. I am not right. I am an outsider. I am alone. My world has crumbled. The things I love are lost. Or maybe like smoke and mirrors where never real. I can't see any more through these rose tinted glasses. But taking them off. I am the dream. I am the the one who fades. In the corner.  I am the dream that dies. And this is how the story of me ends.
Jun 2015 · 366
My deepest secrete
Ranger Jun 2015
Have ever had a secrete
So darkest
Deepest secrete
The one you forgot
In the bottom of a box
Locked away in the depth of a soul
Come back to haunt me
This was why I am
The way I am
This is who I am
An yet I with all my strangth
Can not face it
Because I am affraid
It's slowly killing me
Shame
Guilt
Pain
And contempt
All at my self
This was why I became strong
To hide it where no one can see
Jun 2015 · 234
5 words
Ranger Jun 2015
I lied
I needed you
Jun 2015 · 296
My secrete terror
Ranger Jun 2015
This is not who I am
I look in the mirror
Not my face
Not my hands
What is this
I'm scared
This is not who I am

I scream in terror
No one listens
I don't know
Who this is
I can't tell any one
It feels like the wrong skin
And the only person
I thought could understand
Is no where to be found
Jun 2015 · 380
game of life
Ranger Jun 2015
The game of life
Go fish or poker
We come to the table
Not knowing how to play
No rules but the ones we make
But the hand is in front of you
Kings and queens rule
Giving and taking
Maybe we find a partner
Some times you loose it all
The games not fair
You need to cheat to win
The game never stops
And eventually every one looses
Because the dealer is
DEATH
So play for fun and play for as long as you can because in the end life's all fun and games
Jun 2015 · 357
Tic Tok Drip Drop
Ranger Jun 2015
Watching the clock
The hands moves slowly
Feeling like time is running out
The hands like blades
Moving forward
Cutting away time
Tic Tok
Like the drip drops of blood
Every minute to every hour
A step closer to the grave
Tic Tok
Drip drop
The dark is coming
Jun 2015 · 297
Demon dawn
Ranger Jun 2015
Demon in the dark
knowing full well
the fear and terror

Still knowing your soul
I feel your hear beat
Step by step

Watching you stumble in the dark
Catching the blood on the wind
Crying out in pain

But I am not the monster I thought I was
And not the monster other see
I do this for you

Hiding not moving
Refusing to rush in
Out of site and mind

This is your trail
Your adventure
Your life

And tho it hurts to not show my face
Or cheer you on or pick you up
I know your strong

I have watched you grow from a scared little girl
Lost in the dark and consumed by fear
And tho now you fear.. what I am not sure..

And as you grew I saw the strength grow too
But now this is your life and your fight
You need to cut your way through it all

Just know this
I will always be here in spirit
cheering you on

And you will find your way
this path is not all pain
There will be light

At the end of this night
I still care and I am still proud of you
I know you will be ok
I taught you to fight and to never give up..
And when you finally fall to get back up

I know you.. I know you can
Ranger Jun 2015
I accidentally clicked fallow on my ex profile and I don't really want to fight. I don't hate her mind you I just don't want to upset her or her family. My cell ******* up and I can't seem to unfallow. This is driving me nuts.
Jun 2015 · 7.5k
My cell phone
Ranger Jun 2015
Window to the world
You give me so much joy.
And make me feel so safe.

Looking at your screen
I can go any where
And your soft massages tell me there is some thing to see

I can play games with you
And some times you play games with me

Suddenly with out warning you show me
Things I let be
You torment me.

I turn away
Trying to close the window but you trick
You toy
Making me hit a button I don't want.

No no no.
Let me go back
LET ME UNDO IT!

But no what is done is done
Jun 2015 · 411
Screaming
Ranger Jun 2015
Screaming in pain
No ones listening
Echoing in my head
The agony that is
And people watch
And people see
But no one is listening
I feel my flesh taring
My soul breaking
Mind is rushing
To dark places
Calling for help
But no one sees
Or no one cares
This razor dances
Across the skin
Lines of red liberation
To let out the pain
Is this a cry for help
Or maybe my  only
Way out
Now I bleed
Maybe now they will
See me screaming
Been holding back alot of pain lately and it  all came out at once.
I don't cut never have but I can understand why people do
May 2015 · 340
new philosophy
Ranger May 2015
when life gives you lemons
you wait for life to turn around
and you ram those ******* lemons right up lifes ***
and teach some respect
May 2015 · 921
Code of the wolf:
Ranger May 2015
Code of the wolf:
Protect your family.
Honor the elders.
Teach the young.
Be loyal to your friends.
Voice your opinion.
Stand your ground.
Take charge when others show weakness.
Play when you can.
Work when you must.
Always leave your mark.
Thought it was perfect, not idea who wrote it
May 2015 · 334
Song bird
Ranger May 2015
Song bird
why do you sing
Why
Do you sing
Little song bird
Locked in a cage
Hidden away from the world
Holding your wings up
Singing your tiny song
Why do you sing
Looking through the bars
Seeing the world beyond your bounds
The wold seeming so big out there
But you don't know how to fly
And your not sure how to be free
But little song bird
Oh your song so sweet
How do you find the words to sound so happy
The cage
Space you have never left
But you dream don't you
The wind
Under your wings
Soaring high in the sky
The warmth on your vibrant form
Sore higher and higher
Not for the bars
Or the space you never left
Sing little song bird
For the hope
And the dream
Of spreading your wings
This is your song little bird
Sing for all you have
A dream
The hope
And a prayer
May 2015 · 385
Run stallion run
Ranger May 2015
Embracing who I am
I step forward
nerves and scared
but excited for what wonders
the future holds
blinded by the light
by my first day
I stumble
I fall
But soon
I stand
Ready to run
this is me
this is who I am
A spirit on the wind
A stallion
Wild and free
Just needing to remind my self
Never stop fighting
Never stop believing
So life update time. I have decided to fallow a passion of mine. Graphics design and the arts. I have set up a business I love. I make web pages and create art for company's now. Soon as it is stable and secure I will be able to quit my 9-5 job and do this full time and make more money. I have taken a new name online and in real. Sort of a pen name. When this is more secure I will have more freedom to work from home or travel as long as I can get online I am all good. I am finally doing some thing I love. I thank the people who gave me the courage to do this. I will never forget how they told me to do my art and fallow my passion. I don't know if they will ever read this. But thank you for believing in me.
May 2015 · 1.1k
fighting
Ranger May 2015
I need to remember
How to fight
I lost it
The rage in my soul
That carried me
Day to day
I found some thing
Reason to live
Now  what
Maybe I will fight
For the fight
But hallow
My heart crying and linging
Barry it deep and silant
Shutting down
But this is who I was
Not me now
Changed
I need to learn to fight
Not the pain or for others
I need to fight for me
My heart
My soul
Keep fighting
For me
I'm worth it..
..I hope
May 2015 · 299
I would have been there
Ranger May 2015
I waited and I watched
Hoping and dreaming
Trusting and giving
I am will be there when
You are ready
I will be there I swore
When you say
I need you the most
I will be there
But you never did
And the space between us
Never seemed to matter
And here I sit
And I ask my self
Did you ever mean it when you said
I will be there
The hours turn to days
Days to weeks
And All I know is
I would have been there
I waited and I watched
But never got the chance
To say good bye
May 2015 · 234
Eyes burning red
Ranger May 2015
The color of rage
The color of anger and of blood
But not all in ones eyes need be so cruel
Passion and pride exposed
The heart and of love
Eyes of red
The perfect balance
Of heart and soul
May 2015 · 316
Sad truth
Ranger May 2015
How can you say I mattered
When you threw me away so easily...
...Again
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