I believe I believe
Every day is a day worth facing
Every day will make you a little stronger
Just need to find it in your self
I believe I believe
Start out believing in your heart
This is your world
Your its creator
I believe I believe
Life is a canvas for your hands and your heart
All you need to do is touch it
Don't be afraid to make a mess
I believe I believe
Gives it a little touch
Push it lightly
Make love to the canvas
I believe I believe
Some times the paint mixes and the image is lost
You just need to step back and let it set
And start over
I believe I believe
This world is a bright or as dark as you make it
there are no mistakes just unexpected surprises
Never regret the color in your life
I believe I believe
Life is a song
Listen and slowly let it move your soul
Dancing in its beat and loose all the pain
I believe I believe
Never give up in who you are
Your and artiest by birth
This is your story
I believe I believe
This is your fable this is your play
Act in it all you can pour your heart out
and when the curtain closes be proud of your tale
I believe I believe
There is nothing you can not do
Every thing is possible as long as you have hope
Trust in the art in your soul and you will find it
I believe I believe

I believe

This is your world
You create it

"Good morning cruel world"
Watching the sun rise I laugh
"Good morning to you"
I look at these bottles that **** memory
But offer no peace
"Guess what"
The words cross my lips
Thinking of the day to come
"Me demons did not take me"
I look at the scars on my arms
and down my legs
"Not a drop was shed. Not in tear or crimson"
And with that
I wish you a good morning
I made it through the night
So time to bring on that day
"Good morning cruel world...
Bring it on!!!"

I wonder
if you think of me the way I think of you
During the day wondering
What you are doing
I wonder if you think of me
Late at night as you try to fall asleep
Like I do I right now
I wonder
Do you ask your self
Is he ok..?
Like I do

This hole to hell
Unable to see it
In dark and shadow
How many fear it
Spilling out in to the world
Screams from its depths
What can come of it
Do you know where to find it
I have seen it
The pit
Reach in and take its power
What does it look like
A frame of flesh
A structure of bone
This living hell
Is in the hearts of man
And know one knows
This is where the hole of hell is

Screaming in the dark
But no one here's
Then a sound
Heart beating fast
Is there hope
Waiting
Watching
Nothing
But the dying echos
Falling Silent
I am alone
In the dark
Waiting
Watching
But nothing
Except dying echos

Crumble
Falling apart
Reaching as the ground falls
From be ninth your feet
I fail they fall
Slipping away in the dark
Reaching out I watch every
Disappear in to the void
Crying for help
Never seen
Unheard the dark took them
Is this my hell
To watch every one I know vanish
Friends fallen away
Family dead
Is this my torment
To stand my ground
To test me
Seeing how long it takes
Before I through my self in too
This pit
Where it all crumbled
Or..
Is it more
Am I the reason
It all fell apart
So here I stand
Alone
Looking in to the pit
Of discard
And wonder
Is this the moment I
Fall

Little flower with petals so pink
Like blushing cheeks

I saw you sprouting
Trampled and broken

Wilting and crushed
Under boots of an uncaring world

I feared for you nightly when the sun fell
Your leaves cut, a ragged sight

I mended you and nurtured you
Encouraged your growth

I have seen you bloom and blossom
So beautiful and demure

But now you have changed
You draw blood with thorns

My flower my rose
Well she is no more

You protect your self from touch
And feeling afraid of the world

Fearing being trampled again
Crushed under foot

An elegant rose sated in loneliness
Pushing away those who admire her so

I can not touch you
Only see you from afar

And remember a time when
we didn't have so many scars

I wanted to reap you
Snatching you from the earth you grew in

But knowing I couldn't
Not yet maybe not ever

But I still stood next to you
Giving all that I could

Wanting to watch you grow
And reach for the sun

I don't regret it
Not a single day

I just wish you know tho I might be gone
My heart will always stay

To this flower
I am proud of you still

A sound
A sound
How can it be
That a sound can be
The drug in my life

A sound
A sound
Making me smile
Makes me feel warm
So soft and soothing

A sound
A sound
So simple
And so pure
And yet I can not find it

A sound
A sound
Filled with light
If that is to be understood
Chasing away the dark

This sound
I am missing right now

Never ment for this to happen
This tangled Web
Lives in a spiral
Leading back in to each other

I will be there

At the very end I will be there
No matter how long it takes
And no matter how much our heart aches
I will be there
I sware I will be there


Never knew my self
The warmth I could feel
Not wanting to slip back
This thing we found is far to real

I will be there

I just want to hold you
Feel you against me your arms so tight
Your whispers of love late at night
Isn't that worth the fight

At the very end I will be there
No matter how long it takes
And no matter how much our heart aches
I will be there
I sware I will be there

When your feeling lost and broken
Heart and soul so weak
You can't move
And your voice can't even speak

I will be there

When the sun seems like it will never rise
The new day seems so far away
And all you need is a hand
Tell you see the new day

At the very end I will be there
No matter how long it takes
And no matter how much our heart aches
I will be there
I sware I will be there

And when we have made it
And you are old and faded
With a life of story's to tell
I will be there
I sware I will be there

I wish  I was home
On my paper I would write a poem
To feed my addiction
Your smile that grin
I wish I wash home
To show you a picture
I drew of you and I
With out your happiness I would die
It's not always been easy
Nor has it been fun
This war it seems can never be won
Depression it holds you
It's grasp confusing
A he'll of the heart
It tears you apart
But I am here
A fighter so true
These blue eyes won't lie to you
I want to tell you
I need you to know
It's going to be ok
Winters over and there is no more snow
The darkness will fade in sunrise
Day burning bright in the sky
So remember my poems
My drawings and this truth
I know it will be ok because I believe in

You...

Walking in the dead of night
Street lamps going dark as I walk under them
Am I lost or not wanting to be found
These things in my soul no one understands

Walking in the cool night air
The thoughts rip through my mind
These limits where broken
Humanity stripped away leaving nothing

Craving to use this power
The dark creeping in my heart
Was this what I was intended for
Blood thirst

Walking alone what am I looking for
Knowing I was trained to win
Cold and unforgiving
Can I stay my hand a little longer

Nothing bringing me peace
This walk though the ally
Looking for trouble
A proving ground

Fighting is what I know
Am I a man fighting his demons
Or the demon who killed the man
It seems so far away

Am I looking to feel the rush
Or maybe to step to the edge again
Seeing if I can hold back
Just.. a.. little.. longer..

Maybe if I can find some where
In a place its deserved
I would not feel so bad
When I see the horror in peoples eyes

This thing
Demon or a monster
You see it in there eyes
Thats why I call my self that

So I chose to walk alone
Rather then see it again
In the eyes of some one I love
Push it all away and run

But looking up
There is a light
Glittering in the distance
Warmth drawing me in

Slowly I walk to it
Picking up speed
Faster and faster yet
I it hates the light

Freedom
Embrace me
Please don't fade
Calming in its glow

This pain
Struggling in the light
Washing the dark out of me
Please I beg

Leave the light on
I am almost home

Dark cereals under your eyes
Like a fire ******* ready to burst
you light up my life
My rocket raccoon
You make it all fun
Every one loves you
Through your scars
and the pain
You have a good heart and soul

Me
Tall foolish and loyal to the end
I am stubborn and set in my ways like roots in the earth
No one can understand what I mean but you
I would lay down my life for you
Picking you up when you need it
and shine so bright for you

We make the perfect team

you know who you are

Meet me under the blossom tree
The moon light shining
In the dead of night
Soft whispers
Dancing under the stars
Where no one will see
So won't you meet me...
under the blossom tree

I can't forget
but what really hurts is
Feeling like I am
forgotten

Sitting in moon light
And in hand in hand
There eyes looking deep in each other
Silent and calm
Under a tree
There hearts beating in step
Unspeaking as they hold each other
A silent promise
Before the thousand stars
Forever and always

Sound the bugle now - play it just for me
As the seasons change - remember how I used to be
Now I can't go on - I can't even start
I've got nothing left - just an empty heart

I'm a soldier - wounded so I must give up the fight
There's nothing more for me - lead me away...
Or leave me lying here

Sound the bugle now - tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know - that leads to anywhere
Without a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark
Lay right down - decide not to go on

Then from on high - somewhere in the distance
There's a voice that calls, "Remember who you are"
If you lose yourself - your courage soon will follow

So be strong tonight - remember who you are
Yeah you're a soldier now - fighting in a battle
To be free once more - yeah, that's worth fighting for

Little teddy bear
on the side of the road


Your fur fur worn
Your your stitching is bare

What storys have you heard
And the hardships you endured

Have been there when needed the most
How have you become so lost

Waiting in rain and snow for some one new
To love you

Who needs to be held
To tell there secrits to

Then she came
With crying eyes

Picking you you up
And her in tern

She patch's your Stitch's
Right tight so you can hold her secrites

And changing your one red eye to blue
Guarding her slumber is what you do

How wonderful it was these nights we had
Tell the day she shelft you

Be proud little teddy
You did a good job

You where her best friend
Until the end

So now you sit from your place
Smiling proud at what you had achieve

You where there for her in darkness
So now you can sleep

This feeling
A feeling washing over me
Longing
A memory of blue eyes
Warmth
A smile coming across my face
Wishing
To whisper thank you
Truth
You made me happy
Thankyou

Run run

What lay beneath this mask
Blood and fangs
Fearcr and evil
What truth does it hold back

Run run

The beast
Brutal and unchecked
A blaze of rage
Flesh scared with the past

Run run

The unknown is coming
Its eyes firm never casting down
And his voice rocking the earth
A man or a beast behind the mask

Run run

You stand your ground
Brave and calm
Looking deep in his eyes
What do you see

Behind this mask

Man or beast

That moment

When

You realize

Batman is a

......

...

.

A furry with anger issues

Is this happiness
The fairy tale that was promised
The world as we know it
But this money is cold
And this coin offers no comfort
The more I have the more it seems empty
This is not what I want
My soul does not thrive on this bank
But what is it
That made me smile

Fall

Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath, it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now's your chance to run for cover

I don't want to change the world
I just wanna leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to Heaven

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold-blooded fake
I will shut the world away

Open your eyes!

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive; paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold-blooded fake
I will shut the world away

Fall!

Dreaming of sun
The loft warmth smiling
The most beautiful eyes
Glitter like stars of calm night
The soft wind a whisper
Telling me to be calm
Nurturing and pure
Inspiring the best to grow
This is Summer to me
A loving memory
The rest filled night
Soft touch of hope and joy

This is the Summer I remember

Love
The eternal flower
Light and warmth
Dance in its loving embrace
Love like summer

Lost
Withered and faded
Cold and alone
Holding your self
In the dead of night

Promise
Of bloom and rebirth
The soft whispers on sleep
It will be ok
In a dream of things to come

Missing piece
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
So close and so far
the gap between fingers
the hallow between scars
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
Where did it fall
Others fit but so close
and still not at all
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
This thing I can not find
in the dark wondering
as if i was blind
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
What am I searching for
The strength to keep looking
this piece of my core
~~~
Missing piece
~~~
Missing piece

I will be here

Drinking deeply of this dark brown drink
I would cure the thoughts that I think
~
How I once searched the bottom of a glass
And turned my self in to an ***
~
There was one thing it with in this bottle
By broken will and heart it did coddle
~
The memorys it would drive from my brain
Pushing down that deep dark pain
~
What it did to my life I could never tell
This bottle.. this drink it became my cell
~
Fighting in red rage
A life that hated me and kept me in a cage
~
Today was tempting to drink again
Remembering the good

I dumped it down the drain

What is a man
~~~
Man is nothing more then an animal tell proven a soul
~~~
And the heart to love

Keep fighting
Nothing worth it was easy
Life is hell

You want heaven
You got to push on through hell
And what ever you do

Keep Fighting

Going crazy
I feel the time tick
The clock taunts
The seconds pass
"What are you waiting for"
Tick tick tock
The hands moving as if dancing in glee
Each time as if the they pass 12 they pull the chain of fate
The slow clicks teasing me
Waiting
How long can you last
It's face would grin as if only it had a mouth
The sun setting in the distance
Tick tick tock
"What are you waiting for"

Give them hell who try to drag you down
Give all your passion to those that give you love
Give it the best you got and never forget
Give it all

Fear
the bringer of unrest
It challenges you

Twisted
It bends the truth
Like a bent mirror

Afraid
I know better
It screams the truth

Blinded
I need to step back
To see the the picture

Scared to move
The pain that has been
And the pain that might be

Unsure
I have never been afraid
Tell now alone I must stand

Clarity
But with fear is truth
To see the  fact

Truth
There is nothing to fear
But fear its self

Lost words
Untold story's
Whispers

and truth

Lost and cold
This path does twist
Alone in the dark
I hear your crys
This path we had
Your voice breaks
Cutting the silence
I know you you try
Your words a whisper
Still it wonders to my ear
Soft whimpers of pain
I would race to find you
But this path is yours
You must find it
In the dark
The gray and the black
You try to stay strong
Not letting prying eyes see the hurt
Keep moving forward
Step by step softly tread
There is nothing to fear
I swear my love
The night is frightening
And the light may be low
But look to the stars
See upon the moon
There is hope
But that is not your light
For I know you
And I know your heart
Your soul is a fire
Stomped and beaten
Helplessly broken
They crushed that flame
In your will and your wish
I feel it, soft and light
Wither and weak
There is a cinder
A spark of passion
Left for dead in the dusk
I call to you
Don't let your heart die
Your life is a flame
Hold your spark
That drop of heat
Close to your chest
Don't let them see
The beauty inside
The spark needs time
A loving breath
Then slowly
And all at once
A flame
Stronger
You will burn
Light up the gray
And chase away the dark
I know you can
You are stronger
I know you
Burn bright
Forever and forever
It will guide your way

Good morning to the sun
But you do not burn as bright as her smile

Good morning to the birds
But your voice is not as pure as her

Good morning to the day
Put you are pointless with out a beautiful

love to spend the night with

Hiding in shadows
Alone and afraid
this thing they have been hunting
Do they know my true name
It is deception pure and unbridled
The trickster and manipulator
Do they even have a clue
This face I have
The skin they do know
Can be shed in a heart beat
And in sight I would go
There is no hope
For this creature I fear
His face a mask
I been hiding all my life
This is the truth
Being that which I am not
But how do you hunt the shadows on the walls
And scare the monster under the bed
Does light free you from this murders dread
There are those eyes
You know they change color
But the rest of the beast can change to another
How many names have I collected on this journey
And how many more need know of my furry
I am that thing slipping in shadow
No claws or fangs
Just a mind and a will to better my foes
You can't fight what you can not see
And I am far out of sight
You think you have one
but only round one in this god awful fight

Let us dance
we know all the moves
Moving back and forth
Shadows and light
This path we have forged
We have moved a thousand times
We know how this song began
we know the songs ending
Around and around we spin
The noise and the light
A drug in our system
How we move against one another
One pushing the other falling away
This dance
It is life
And love
And there is no one I rather dance with
Then you

Watch it all slip away
Failure that old formidable word
Knowing there was nothing
And no hope in the end
Perfect in its form
As it fade

Flawless Failure