She's dark, yet
moonlight glows
inside her soft-eyes
& despite her
tragic-aura,
I still want
her blackness,
to taste her magic,
to kiss
the devil inside her.

Do you remember Red Ribbons
And the fear the world felt inside
Could AIDS be transferred through vision
Was the air contagious outside

Some said the government made it
Others thought it was god's design
AIDS had infected our spirits
Was the air contagious outside

Was AIDS transmitted by touching
"Don't touch him he's gay and you'll die"
Repugnant minds were erupting
Was the air contagious outside

Do you remember Red Ribbons
Was the air contagious outside

I started wearing Red Ribbons
After hearing my friends tragic tales
Of the worst gifts they'd been given
Entombed in a black mourning veil

Our grandmothers they were best friends
You told me, my god I went stale
Sick with anguish for your grave end
Entombed in a black mourning veil

Once surrounded by many, now few
Your frame morphed from buxom to frail
Love you Joy, I bid you adieu
Entombed in a black mourning veil

I started wearing Red Ribbons
Entombed in a black mourning veil

Silence is not keeping quiet
because you have nothing
to say...

Silence is having a lot
to say but no desire
to speak...

I can not seem to see you anymore.
Not clearly anyway.
Why do you hide in shadows,
Avoid the light of my love,
Cover your face with you hands?
Speak in hushed whispers,
That only I can hear?
I miss your face of sunshine,
Your hugs of reassurance.
Your inviting laughter of gaiety.
Your innate wisdom,
So liberally dispensed.
Without your light to guide me,
More and more, I am often lost.

Grown man or not,
Without you I'm still a child.

The flowers I brought you last time,
are now brown and wilted.
And your headstone
Needs a good cleaning.

The leaves
Make death
Look beautiful

sometimes the truth
hurts more
than a irreparable bone
and love
hurts more
than a bleeding stab wound
and honesty
feels like a battery acid
fighting through
substance
like it's a factory job

they say
love is blind
but they don't tell you
love is also
stupid
dumber
than its cousin
hope
and doesn't learn from its mistakes
and never deserves what it gets
and love
sometimes
wishes it was dead
for being
the eighth wonder
of the natural world
and causing
all the good things
but also all the bad ones
yet what we seem to forget
is that the earth will
keep spinning
and the sun will
keep rising
and the moon will
keep waxing
and people
will keep being happy
without this bittersweet curse
and the phrase
"it is better to have
loved and lost
than to never have
loved at all"
will not exist
and will not be
the anthem of every person
who has ever been hurt
because these are universal
l i e s

in some cases
ignorance is bliss
when it comes
to love
ignorance is ecstasy
and your hands
are electricity
your mouth
is shimmering heaven
where gods enjoy paradise
and my actions
are the seventh circle
of dante's inferno
and the universe
joyfully condemns me
for my sins
-and i deserve it-
to the smell and sting and ugly sight
of burning flesh
for as long as this
hate
called love
exists
because
why
why
should i enjoy
anything less?

the ground
it already opened up
and swallowed me because
i am
the essence
of pure evil
i am being reclaimed
the heavens open up
and receive you
because you are
the reward;
the muslim's seventy-two virgins
the christian's gold-trimmed palace
the pagan's summerland
the hindu's nirvana
for every being
who did
what they were supposed to
unlike
me
i am ****

you are spilt gasoline
and i am a match
you are my warm bed
and i am
the moment
when you are falling
and you can't see the ground
the ground that swallowed me