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 Jul 2016 Kay
a m a n d a
there are things i do,
alone.
no one sees.
except for the shades
i have cracked.

this is how i know
when to stop.
or better,
to know to go
a little more.
i know because
it burns.
it warns me.
so i back away.

there are things
i thought once
that no longer
have value.
to anyone.

but i'm going
further,
faster
always with
eyes closed

i thought for a second
that i knew
how to make it better.
but nothing
past that moment.

sometimes i know
the best thing to do
and i push it
as far as i can
until no more.

sometimes i fail
to stop the
ash from
burning my foot.

it can always
be more
or better.
this will always be true.

pain is
a stealing of focus

i try to
spread it around
breathe it in

i don't know how
to get anywhere else.

i've used up
all the things
that i knew.

except i know
enough
to hide things.

even entire people.

there, but
not there.

then there is more,
better to see
in the dark

a taking away
of things
always being
pulled higher

it's a place you can go
to catch your head
rocking on what
you must mean

there is not a
way back
through time.

i try to be
the one
who doesn't need anything

i like the word
upon word
upon word
layers

to have no
partner
you have to just
show up

i turned it inside
out
for a moment

i think i
missed
the whole thing

is it strange?
this strange place i am in?
can you see it?
it's just that i can
see it all the time
and it is
distracting.

and i'm back
to a silvery
piece

you have to
invite
the cells
ask them to
come in

and you have to decide
like or dislike
depending on the stack
of the winters
 Jul 2016 Kay
Lex
Sometimes I cry so hard
A thunderstorm erupts in my rib cage
And my hands tremble like beach houses
In the path of a tsunami
But thinking of your eyes
Helps me escort oxygen to my lungs
And hold a paint brush instead
Of strangling the sheets of my bed
As if my tears will create a waterfall
Sweeping me away from you and
My pillowcase is wondering why I haven't screamed into it
In about a month or so
But I found reconcile in how your freckles
Resemble stars in the sky
And I've been trying to tell you
If you need the galaxy rearranged
I will do that
every single time the moon says hello,
I can promise you I can make the sun play hide and seek for as long as you'd like
If it means I can see the creases being created
By your smile again
For M
 Dec 2014 Kay
Sidney
searching
 Dec 2014 Kay
Sidney
searching.... for that perfect person.  All of what I think I want I also think I cannot have and that it does not exist, yet I continue to search.
My heart cries out in pain and an aching that I cannot ignore any longer.
Is it possible to have true love at my age?  Am I too dried up and used?
There's always the "one day, one day, one glorious day, he will show up when I least expect it" *******.  

Underneath the heartache is a deeper ache.  Have I missed my chance? Is this how my life will be from now on?  Even the thought of that makes my soul crumble.  I suppose if that's what God intended for me, then sobeit.  It can't be true...
 Dec 2014 Kay
Aoife Teese
symbiosis
 Dec 2014 Kay
Aoife Teese
The way I hate you washes over me in waves. The weight of the water crushes my rib cage, and I want to scream louder than I've ever screamed before.

The way I love you tears at me from the inside out. My heart bursts under the pressure of the pain you've given me, and I want to scream louder than I've ever screamed before.

Physical pain is incomparable to this.
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