I'm dying for a "happy" ending
In which I dont exist
Dying for an ending
Where I escape all of this

I just want you to need me as much as you need oxytocin, dopamine & serotonin. I selfishly want your sky's to be gloomy without me. I want everything & everyone that's not me to feel like a mistake. I want you to feel that you live in a black & white world If I'm not around.

I want you to need me.
But when you need me,
you become monotonous.
I want you to need me
& as soon as you do,
I'll leave...

We've been playing hide and seek since then
We would hide from different places, near or far
Then the "it" would count from one to ten
Then the "it would wonder where we are
Everything has changed since that lost grace
Everyone became distant to each other
I just want to be in our little secret base
And be with all of you together
But fate and life are just so mean
I was seen by one, but only for a brief moment
I want you to find me even if I cannot be seen
Then I would be happy with this given moment

Thank you, for I was seen in my last moments with thee
With a smile on my face, I am glad that you have found me

Spring
It was spring when I first met him
Standing proudly in a bench, a violin with him
His flattering eyes as he sings
His hair flowing with the breeze
His fingers gracefully playing the violin
His tears brushing through his cheeks
Everything was like a movie scene
Even if he scolds me because of something so little
Even if we argue in something so little
It’s strange that I want to treasure those little things
Did I found my place in your heart?
Tell me how could I forget everything?
You marked yourself in my heart
But not all good things last
I wish it could last

Now spring is coming
The spring that I met you in is coming
A spring…
Without you is coming…

Have you ever heard that line
where most lies are at sight?
It's when they ask you if you're alright
then you'll just smile and answer "I'm fine".

That moment when everything falls
Like a baby, all you could do is crawl
But you can't just abandon everything
So you ended up shouldering everything

It's hard to be strong
Nobody asks if you could still fight
Nobody knows that you're losing the light,
That your barely holding on for so long