Keeping a grudge is easy... it's the forgiveness part that's difficult. I have tried and failed countless times... but i'm determined to succeed..i don't wish to keep no more grudges.. coz all a grudge a does is that it keeps feeding on your soul like an agitated ant.

After all these years you say you don't want to be with me 'coz you don't know me well enough...What I am as a person..what are my likes and dislikes...what are my desires......
I just have this one small question...
.... "how would you expect to know a person when you don't even make the effort?"

The moon’s still high In the dawning sky
And the streetlights cut the gloom.
I go for a walk and a mental talk
That sweeps my mind like a broom.

The desert air, to which none can compare
Banishes all thoughts of doom
I walk the street to an eager beat
Like a Bride on the way to her Groom.
ljm

I still pine
       for what I’ve lost
               the promise and
                               fulfillment.

I still search my memory
                for hidden fragments
                                 of that treasure.

     Time has covered
                some of them in
                            shadows of nostalgia.

     But the flaming pain
                        still brightly burns and
                                      tears will not extinguish it.
                        ljm

I don’t know where it went
  I just know it’s gone
    I don’t know how it happened
      I just know I did it
        I don’t know what it even was
          I just know I miss it
            I don’t know where to go to find it
              I just know I have to try
                             ljm