Lose Control

     You’ve got everything in the
Palm of your precious hands
You think everyone else sees the World
In Black & White and nobody understands

You’ve got the power and there’s only
One rule and it’s gotta be your way
If the people refuse to comply
They can hit the Highway

Nothing can get in your way as you
Get all you can take, you’ll never stop
Clearing the Path you’re on as you
Navigate your way to the top

But your life is full of heartache
And darkness and setbacks and pain
You can’t be happy in your pursuit of
Happiness and your tears fall like rain

There’s a fire below and the contract
On the table, The Devil wants your soul
Jesus says the key to happiness
Is Simply to just Lose Control

Written By:Charles Kean
07/28/2024

Beneath the dusk, with roses in my hand,

I waited where the quiet breezes land.

She came, her eyes, like twilight, full of ache,

No joy upon her lips for love to take.

I hid the tokens of a planned delight, For all she sought was warmth in fading light.

I pressed her close and asked what grief might be

She sighed, "Dear love, thou dream'st too much of me."

From thousand oaks origin


Begin metabolic crash.  Obstruction by construction of opposition to evidence

Of?


Enter the New York detective

Take bus fare to Oxnard
Re apply for Tru connect lifeline replacement phone due to broken phone

Return in metabolic crash state of liberties to thousand oaks origin

Homekey fraud quality inn and suites document revision history book

Suggested mitigation of circumstances

Motel 6 reservation for Kevin per housing laws

Will it always be this way?
Feel this way?

Is this the universe trying to remind me of what I did?
What I lost?

I guess in the end it doesn’t really matter, right?

Doing something kind turned into whatever this feeling is.

I saw his name first.
Classic.
My body still reacted on instinct.
I had to remind myself that I was fine.
Not in danger.
I told myself that it shouldn’t stop me from contributing myself.
So I did.

Hours later I went to look again, see where the contributions had risen to.
Only to see another name.
Right above mine.
Another body reaction.

It seems we contributed at the exact same time.
Classic.

I’d be convinced that it was the universe torturing me if it wasn’t for the fact that you don’t deserve the same torture.

I spent my night reflecting on why my body seemed to react the same way to both names.

I shouldn’t be surprised, I think that was always the issue, right?

My body could never tell the difference, so my mind was confused.
Convinced feeling anything similar meant
RUN.

I know that’s not true.
I know what I lost.
I know what I must live with.
What I am living with
in my new life
across the country.

None of it matters anymore, I know.

adoption in the mind of God
perfect love reaches out

arms outstretched
a welcome home.

More and more
This feeling grows gradually
It makes me feel sore
So brutal

AHHHHHHHHHH
why do I have to wait
longer and longer
These moment that I hate!