Today I asked question But I do not know to whom I voiced concern for all the memories and the ever present mood The one that crushes spirits, more specifically my own While the barren land I wander has become a horrid home I haven't told myself the truth, I turn away from day to day And all the things I do not see they whisper gently so they say They tell me that I'm gone and that my smile cannot be they shout that I am wrong and oh so broken don't you see? But I swear I've known this all along I've watched the slow descent Now I'm drowning in light's absence found in my head's recess I carve these final words in the bones of age old souls They scream with me the same matching the lifelong acquired tone It echos hurt without a cause and loss that burns without a balm I feel my structure is all wrong, chest is caving, heart is small Mind is managed through a looking glass To prove I have thoughts at all Ones that don't drift in from the smog that sits so stale in this room Ah, but the walls, they are so smooth And no doors to allow the ****** and thieves to find their way on through Solitude No other view They tell me I enjoy this so I don't refute Content with time spent sitting wishing for some context The prospect is unnerving Voices rise with every wording Therapeutic or otherworldly? I am worthy! I think.. I am sane! So they speak.. But they lie everyday, so who do I believe? Fully unraveled I see I can't even trust me.
That was the end to my three part poem. Though they can stand alone I thought it would be interesting to view a steady descent into what I perceive as madness without overloading and making it entirely too long.