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Sarah M Gillihan
Poems
Dec 2014
My Gift To You
I’m tired of trying
There have been too many tears
All these nights that I’ve been crying
The burns on my arms
I’m terrible at hiding
But no one cares
So I don’t have to keep fighting
My parents don’t know
The pain I’m still going through
I’m “as happy as can be”
Who knew
There are cuts on my stomach
My hips
My legs
I don’t tell anyone
About this pain in my head
No one knows
About my long-term sedative
I’m getting better
Except for the fact
That I don’t want to live
I feel so ashamed
Because I’ve tried so hard
To fight for you
But it’s hard
And I’m still scarred
But I want you to be proud
Of this smile that’s been misplaced
Not of the make-up running down my face
Not of the blood that seeps through my skin
I’m “getting better”
Though I’m dying within
I’m ready to go
My thoughts always win
I’ve lost everything
Though I had nothing
To begin
With
My open eyes
Every night
I still cry
In the bathroom at school
My shoelace
******* high
Just a loop around my neck
Just a jump away
I’m ready to go
And my body will sway
Back and forth against the door
I just know you’ll be okay
Without me you’re safer
When I’m gone it’ll brighten your day
I’m sorry I made you go away
I’m sorry I made you feel that way
I hope my tears will brush the pain away
I’ll be gone soon
So say
“Hooray!”
I won’t bother you
Another day.
#fear
#hate
#depressed
#im
#up
#i
#fml
#again
#******
Written by
Sarah M Gillihan
Fort Worth
(Fort Worth)
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