make my head stop, heart stop*

no matter how i claw at my side

my head keeps spinning
my heart keeps beating

no matter how many times i throw myself against the wall

my head keeps spinning
my heart keeps beating

no matter how many times i write hate on my arms

my head keeps spinning
my heart keeps beating

no matter how many times i hold this bottle under my nose

my head keeps spinning
my heart keeps beating

no matter how many poems i write