here it is, i'm laying it all out, just for you; all my cards are on the table. and it's not a winning hand. yet it's all the things i desperately want to say but won't leave my lips, all that I need you to know, to understand. i swear im not pushing you away. my fingers grasp your shirt because I'm so **** scared you'll slip away. your wings are made for more and you deserve to see them spread wide. sometimes I wished you never met me because I've clipped them and now you're here close to the ground, next to me. if i blink will you be gone ? and then with whom will i share the parts of me i've tried so hard to destroy but none of it matters in the end because the damage is already done the walls have shattered and collapsed all around me and i see you through a single crack, standing, waiting on the other side, blood staining the knuckles of your crumpled hands so here goes...