My pain irks me, Sends me flying into my bed. Under the cover of darkness.
As I cry myself awake, Unable to sleep. I ask myself.. Why?
Why am I such a ***** up? Why do I make mistakes, Knowing my parents will be angry?
My tears intensify, My claws take my skin, Leaving ****** marks...
I scream in my head, Rocking to the beat of my music, That sings in my ear bud.
Evanescence, Rascal Flatts. Plumb. Crossfade.
I cannot find peace.. All I feel is that pain. That has ****** me over for, Five years.
I'm only a teenager, I only can take so much. Until Its over.
I've already tried once... What makes you think I'll try again?
Dad, What makes you so ******? Taking it out on me, Because I don't listen?
Why can't you and my step mom, Just realize.. That I'm only Seventeen..
And so it says, My title will always stay. Lone wolf forever..
I cant be perfect, It's just not my style.
My life is so different, I cry even harder.
Mistakes, Promises broken. Two faced liars..
God, Why aren't you here? I need you.. And I need you now..
As my pain intensifies, All I see is the cascading shadows. Watching my every move...
My music doesn't help anymore..
Really ****** day and my parents don't realize that I'm trying to be an adult.. Not a teenager.. I make split second decisions for my well being. Not their own.