pale computer light reflecting off your skin. shining brightest off the whites of your eyes. you don’t look at me until I say your name. I wish you looked me in the eye more. at college my friends seem surprised when I say I have a brother
I love you Lucas. I love you so much.
when I got home today you said: “I’m watching that TV show you recommended, it’s really good! how’s college? how long are you staying? how was that concert?” after I talked to you for a while, I took a shower. I curled up and cried with my mouth opened up so wide I could of been screaming. I made no sounds. I didn’t want you to hear. it was the first time you’ve ever asked me more questions than I’ve asked you.