Apr 2014
My faith has been weak,
I have fallen on my knees
so many times.
But how honest was I?
I felt hate and shame,
till they both felt the same.
I've been so wrong,
for way too long.
Why did I look away,
or run at the sound of your name?
Why was I so afraid,
just to be saved?
After being so blind,
and falling out of line,
I finally see,
it's you that I need.
After all that you've sacrificed,
you gave your entire life,
just for sinners like me.
What took me so long to see?
My lord, I give you my life.
After all of this struggle and strife.
I realize I can't survive,
without you on my side.
You are the king of all kings,
You are everything.
Even after I have sinned,
I know I am now forgiven.
I have fallen on my knees
so many times.
But how honest was I?
I felt hate and shame,
till they both felt the same.
I've been so wrong,
for way too long.
Why did I look away,
or run at the sound of your name?
Why was I so afraid,
just to be saved?
After being so blind,
and falling out of line,
I finally see,
it's you that I need.
After all that you've sacrificed,
you gave your entire life,
just for sinners like me.
What took me so long to see?
My lord, I give you my life.
After all of this struggle and strife.
I realize I can't survive,
without you on my side.
You are the king of all kings,
You are everything.
Even after I have sinned,
I know I am now forgiven.
Within the past few year, I have not been who I needed to be. I've been lying to myself, letting myself believe I was living right. But tonight I watched a movie called "The Passion Of The Christ" and it brought me to realize my mistakes. Not only did I cry through the whole movies, I prayed through most of it also. To think that Jesus gave his life for me and I still have the nerve to make small, pointless excuses for my sins made me see how wrong I've been. From this day on, I'm going to try and live my life right. I am letting go of the hate I use to hold inside of my heart and I am starting over new. My faith is restored.
