In the distance A light began to shine Sitting on the porch We waited curiously
A soft tap was heard The tapping grew louder As we exchanged glances A lady’s voice called out to us
“Stop it” She yelled.
In the distance The light grew brighter and hungrier As quick as an engine roared to start The roar just as quickly, came to a halt
Frustrated murmurs Fists against glass He wanted his keys Leave her alone, please
I imagined the stench of his whiskey stained breath As possible scenarios invaded my head Was she safe? Was he drunk?
I asked these questions out loud But I don’t remember any answers Searching for them myself I stumbled closer to the sound
Now she was screaming. Don’t hurt me Please don’t hurt me There’s a baby
I had to help her.
Running back towards the group No memory of talking to them I’m sure that I did I only remember
Gritting my teeth Closing my eyes Covering my ears Trying to block out the sound
Her screams and cries for help Slowly morphed and twisted Into my brothers voice His six year old voice
The tapping on the window Became the rattling of a bunk bed The woman’s screams and yelling Became my baby brothers cries for help
I’ve gone backwards. 10 years.
It’s been three days since I heard her yell And three days since his screams began
It’s been three hours since I took the pill bottle And three hours since I put it down again
It was a painful night. I don’t think I can ever put into words how helpless I felt that night. No experience has ever felt as close to my childhood before. The police were called and I think that she’s okay. I’m okay now too thanks to my beautiful friends and partner.