So many questions running through my head The most pressing of all is "why?" Why am I not good enough for you? Why do I even try?
Why do you do this again and again Like you're programmed to lie and cheat? Our relationship is a broken record Stuck playing on repeat
Over and over you promise to stop How many "last times" does it take? At some point we have to admit to ourselves It's no longer a mistake
There's a reason you are drawn astray I don't know what it is you see In her that's so **** special But cannot find in me
You never can explain the pull Say your stupidity is to blame That I am perfect just the way I am So I'm left exactly the same
Then come the apologies Sounding sincere but they're not You aren't sorry for ******* up You're sorry you got caught
The truth is if you meant what you said We wouldn't be in this place You wouldn't be able to stand the hurt Splattered all over my face
Is this revenge for all I've done To wrong you in the past? You've never revealed your motive to me Despite the numerous times I've asked
Clearly something is off-balance Because no matter what I do You seek attention from everyone else While I only get it from you
If you don't want to be exclusive say so I won't pretend like I wouldn't care You are the only person I'll ever desire But at least that way it'd be fair
Right now you get all of my heart I save all my love for only you Believing the rules apply to us both That you give all to me too
But you're spreading yourself around Handing pieces out one by one Mind at ease because you know for sure I am sharing none
It seems like you do it because you can No matter how bad I forgive But being a pawn in your sick game of chess Is not a proper way to live
We are too old to be playing games I thought you were ready to settle down But maybe you're just settling the score By turning my world upside-down
I wish you'd just be honest Understanding is what I most crave But I fear your secrets and reasons Will be carried with you to your grave
So what am I supposed to do? Put up with this ******* forever? I want so badly for you to grow up But I'm starting to see you will never
Yet no one else could ever compare You are my soulmate My best friend So I refuse to turn my back on us I'm gonna see it through til the end
Take some time to work through your emotions Decide if you feel the same way If you don't then the door is waiting No one is forcing you to stay
If I am the one you want to marry Start treating me as such Quit flirting with meaningless women I don't think I'm asking too much
Whatever I am missing now Tell me so I can at least try To be everything you want and need So I can shut your wandering eye
If you want to fix this let me know And I'll do everything I can To get us back to the happiness we held When we first began
If you choose to keep messing around It is only a matter of time before I fall Are you ready for a life with just us two? Or do you want one without me at all?
I am so sick of seeing this kind of **** from you and then you expecting me not to be insecure and expect me to trust you. Why can't you just be real with me and tell me I am not as important to you as you are to me instead of leading me on? It isn't fair...