Feb 2020
Pacing around
Stuck on the ground
Music blast
A trip to the past
The truth is, I want to hold you
Tell you
That everything is gonna be okay
If not today
Then tomorrow
You don't have to be in sorrow
Love, I'm right here
For you my dear
I will listen to you
No matter what you do
I'll be here
For you
I caused alarm
Didn't want to cause harm
I'm sorry Love
I just want to see you free as a dove
See me now
This is how
I am inside
I try to hide
From the world
My knees curled
To my chest
Where you say I have a heart of gold
Like buried treasure
Music blaring
I'm still wearing
The bracelet you made me
And when you look at yours
As you do your chores
Think of me
And I hope
You do not mope
And that you can forgive me
All I want to do
Is hold you
Brush your hair behind your ear
And hear
You say,
"Stay,"
"Here with me."
And we can be
Just you and me
Please
I reach to seize
Your hand
Please
Take me to the land
Of dreams
Where we are dancing in the moonbeams
And I can feel again
Free as a wren
It's like I'm falling
And you're falling too
I reach to you
And I can't see
Wind stinging my eyes
Blinding me
I feel so far from you
But you're only 12 miles away
Love, I want you to stay
With me
You hear my plea
I said words that got carried
In my head they are buried
You told me one thing
Told your mother another
That's okay
But just tell me that you'll be
I love you, I miss you
I'm right here, my dear
I care, and I dare
Say that I always will
Because baby
Just maybe
If you let me
The future could be so bright
Bright as your shining eyes
So please stay
Here with me.
- Jay M
February 19th, 2020
Stuck on the ground
Music blast
A trip to the past
The truth is, I want to hold you
Tell you
That everything is gonna be okay
If not today
Then tomorrow
You don't have to be in sorrow
Love, I'm right here
For you my dear
I will listen to you
No matter what you do
I'll be here
For you
I caused alarm
Didn't want to cause harm
I'm sorry Love
I just want to see you free as a dove
See me now
This is how
I am inside
I try to hide
From the world
My knees curled
To my chest
Where you say I have a heart of gold
Like buried treasure
Music blaring
I'm still wearing
The bracelet you made me
And when you look at yours
As you do your chores
Think of me
And I hope
You do not mope
And that you can forgive me
All I want to do
Is hold you
Brush your hair behind your ear
And hear
You say,
"Stay,"
"Here with me."
And we can be
Just you and me
Please
I reach to seize
Your hand
Please
Take me to the land
Of dreams
Where we are dancing in the moonbeams
And I can feel again
Free as a wren
It's like I'm falling
And you're falling too
I reach to you
And I can't see
Wind stinging my eyes
Blinding me
I feel so far from you
But you're only 12 miles away
Love, I want you to stay
With me
You hear my plea
I said words that got carried
In my head they are buried
You told me one thing
Told your mother another
That's okay
But just tell me that you'll be
I love you, I miss you
I'm right here, my dear
I care, and I dare
Say that I always will
Because baby
Just maybe
If you let me
The future could be so bright
Bright as your shining eyes
So please stay
Here with me.
- Jay M
February 19th, 2020
He told me he was depressed, maybe a little more than that, and I was shocked. I cried, and my mom found me and told his mom. They talked, and I haven't heard from him. I'm giving him space, because I'm scared he may not trust me or want to talk to me. I may have ******* things up, and I'm really really really hoping I didn't mess things up. I've been...somewhat numb all day, and when I did feel things all I've felt is just down. Like I'm stunned from rolling into a wall, and kinda dazed. I...I should have been more calm, but I...I don't know. At least they (him and his mom) got to talk, and things will be okay. I just...I miss him, and just want to hold him and tell him everything is okay. But...I can't right now, so...here I am. Just...scraping by, as they say.
