you'll never know him... and maybe the way i think is out on a limb, but i wish you could have met the man i love, he's kind, patient, and doesn't judge... but pushes me to be better when i need that shove. not in the ways my father did to you, but rather he cares about me and his actions have proved it in the time due. i wish you could have met that man more than you did, i'm not guaranteeing he's my forever, but i got him like the winner of a bid. somehow this man loves me mama, and despite all of your life's drama, he is trustworthy and lovely... and i wish you could have liked him as much as he loves me.