I haven’t always been an addict I remember a time when I judged those who clung to bad habits like their life depended on it I used to think why can’t they just stop? I used to wonder why people would risk their lives just to feed that desire If my 14 year old self knew me now she’d be ashamed I wish I could go back and tell her that those friends are going to get you addicted They’ll introduce you to things that you’ve always wanted to try And eventually they’ll become things you can’t turn down She probably wouldn’t believe me, she’s always been naive and stubborn I wish I could tell her that drinking only makes you forget for a little while And that blurriness you feel only lets you escape for one night And when you wake up the next morning the only thing you’ll look forward to is getting drunk again you’re wrong she would say I wish I could tell her that blunt won’t fix the loneliness in your heart And that good feeling you feel right now is only temporary And you’ll find yourself craving that again when your high is gone You’ll blow your money that mom gave you on grams instead of what you told her it was for you’re wrong she would say I wish I slap that cigarette out of her mouth and tell her how addictive and deadly it is And how mom would be so disappointed in her if she knew And how stupid she was for allowing herself to succumb to all these things It’s not that bad she would say I wish I could tell her about the time she drank so much that she passed out in a strangers home and didn’t know where she was the next day I wish I could tell her that she almost ran into a ditch and died because she was high while driving I wish I could tell her how she couldn’t go a day without smoking at least 3 cigarettes and mom found out about it you were right she would say when it was too late Hooked on *****, drugs, and cigarettes Crying alone in her room at 1 am, knowing that she couldn’t keep doing this But not knowing how to stop I wish I could tell her not to judge those people stuck on bad habits Because one day that will be you too And you still haven’t fully recovered I can’t just stop she would say And she still says to this day.