I don't want to apologize, but I am sorry. I understand I can be a bit dramatic sometimes, and over think every situation. However, I just wish I could understand how you feel about me. Maybe I wouldn't hold on to every little thing if you just gave me a sign that is clear for me to read. I've never been able to enjoy the company of another, so I'm not sure how this is suppose to play out. Don't leave me in the morning feeling used and forgotten. However, I find myself waiting by the phone as the evening passes wondering if I should keep trying. I'm holding on but I know I deserve something more. It's been 9 months and it's been hundreds of miles. Sorry if this sounds selfish, but I can't wait forever and hold onto nothing when I know I deserve something more. I love your company and in my head, we are happy because I know you feel the same. I don't want to sound dramatic, but just please don't leave me in this haze.