I want to mumble
and stumble upon words
that I haven't used
since you left
but these words
they linger somewhere
on the tip of my tongue
I want to say
I love you
I want to tell you
to come back home
but I know I shouldn't
I try to hold back
but these words
they are too sacred
to be repeated
or to be left
unsaid
and I don't know how but
I let them slip off my fingers
somewhere between the texts
somewhere between hello
and goodbye
I tell you I love you
and I try
to take it back
but I try not to
and I know you noticed
but I'd rather you pretend
it was left unseen
I'd rather you pretend
to not notice
the tears
that flow down my cheeks