I wish I could freeze moments shared in the past The courageous minute time sealed certain fate The little girl I was, stubborn, stupid, and immature Wanted too badly to be your forever mate.
My young heart; pure and poetic Easily misled by alcoholic lips Remember our first real conversation? I melted I long to have those same sweet stomach flips.
I watch you now, older body and face Laugh at how blind I was to your flaws While clouds darken the past even more You breathe in the same hurt you cause.
Cannot see beyond the suffering I watch you try to rekindle the fire You dance among burning embers Absence dismissed, I begin to tire.
A soundtrack to our summers Birdsong always seemed to fill loyal air Now cheerful melody seems mocking Inhaling their tunes with barely a care.
Out the window, I recognize clear roads Recollect ancient paths, sigh and reflect The breeze is the temperature it was then Can't withstand the ice memories collect.
Heart trips over unclaimed baggage I cannot see how big yoursuitcase really seems You're dying, at least part of your life is You are fine with losing all our dreams.
In your gaze rest a few hints of regret Out of time, still let it finally show Bedroom reminds me of the worst pieces of us Feel like the walls contain secrets only we know.
Sitting on my floor, staring at a small mirror An assaulting intruder is what I see looking back An unwelcome guest forced her way in My view alights an invisible attack.
The fangs you sunk beneath my skin Always had me ensnared You were worse than a drug, loved your high No matter what family said I never cared.
Sight muddy from substances, I was stumbling Didn't think I could be ready to say goodbye Back in those days I owned no worry or concerns Now I am chased by echoes of a beautiful lie.
Did I fall for you, or your friendly illusions? Looking backwards, its hard to seperate Which chapters were real and which were fake Regardless, they will not cease to resonate.