You swear you're happy, are you really?
It looks like you have fallen far,
My harmful actions dethroned you,
And left you a hardened scar.

How can you gift forgiveness?
I am a deep drain at the bottom of a shower stall,
Too many insults accumulated ,
They sometimes back up but I swallow them all.

You are a boundless river,
I will have to throw in some satisfaction,
The curl of red-tipped waves crash,
I am the reflection of each careless action.

Truth hidden in monotonous glare,
Smell of disappointment and unrest,
I fell for you, you fell first,
I was the one to hear your heaving chest.

I know I need to jump the rare chance,
Show you the light inside the dark,
I have not been the best version of me,
I completely hate myself for leaving that aching mark.

I have many problems and flaws,
Sitting in the past waiting for them to self-correct,
You lost your sanity dealing with issues,
I never learned how to nurture; only neglect.

We dizzied eachother spellbound,
I am unsure if I bring you more joy than pain,
I am trying to clear our stormy skies,
In the meantime we will dance in the rain.