I have this overwhelming fear
God is watching me
With tears in his eyes
Shaking his head
And with sadness in his throat
He tells his son

“She was meant to be so much more
But she is nothing I created her to be”

And that image in my head
Destroys me every night
As I lay in my bed
Thinking of everything
I wish I could be and
Everything I wish I could do.

-ARI