sometimes, i hope for
new beginnings.
i want to live with
sunshine in my eyes,
bucket of dreams,
handful of courage
and ecstatic happiness.
but then life always ***** me up,
and that makes me sad.

sometimes, i wish that
i won't wake up anymore.
i want to end all the sufferings,
the mistakes, the depression,
the pain. but then you
can't just escape your life
just by wanting it
and that makes me sad.