When Tweaks In me I see things differently. I’m not myself, I’m nobody When crystal reaches my blood stream , all I see are reasons to keep on using. When I’m on this drug The only things I see is negativity Reasons to convince me to stay on one When I’m lit I think of things that hurt me. I do a line but I don’t feel fine I Grow rage of furry . Which change me. I have Hate that gives me new traits. I turn ruthless I can’t feel joy but I care less What makes being high Amazing Is being able to face the ones who hurt me & not care or acknowledge how they affected me. Forgetting there existence. I'm Testing Sobriety. I'm on A comedown & I'm Wondering. If it's Really worth Stoping. Is it Reality or drugs That's ******* With Me. Which Is The Real Threat? Living lfe or Avoiding it. Dealing Or Numbing. What gives me Better outcomes? Either way I'm Slowly Dying. From A broken heart or substance It's Turned into A game. I'm Eager for You to do me foul.. My Sobriety relies On You now. Why Cry And hurt. When I can Level up. You Say Your working on changing. You continue Doing Ghost ****. I found My solution . To Forgive You , Forget and feel happy.