I listen to music more then I talk to people Have headphones And a lack of conversation at the dinner table
I wonder if I cut out my tongue And boarded up my mouth where would the poetry come from?
Would my brain be a constant flicker of words and rhythms Would I attempt to scream every night Inaudibly Where would the poems go? Would they bleed out of my ears and my nose Would they make one with my tears And if they did would I be in a state of constant crying And bleeding And dying
But my biggest fear
Is what if the words left completely What if they no longer poured over me Baptized me In a world of hope
Of myself that I have not yet But know will one day accept
Would you be cleansed Of me
rivers of hope would flow down your cheeks
How Would I show love Without my words?
And when she told me That she did not agree Would my body just stay numb Holding back words- I mean tears While she talked about us sinners
On the days I want to take a vow of silence I remember keeping my heartbeat steady as I looked her in the eye and said It is not our job for judgment When you preach hate where are you leading them?
Because God is love And love is love
She would remain unchanged She would never know the percentage of lgbt+ youth at risk for suicide Or those who have already tried Or whose parents have disowned them
So I preach
I preach love and acceptance
Because God is love And love is love And my love is my
words
So no I will not be silent Because I refuse my niece and nephews to live with a mother so hateful to grow into a world that is unchanged Because of people like me