do not follow me into the ocean
do not watch the waves lick my calves
do not wonder where I am going
I'm going
to the bottom of the ocean

the sun, sets
as do my intentions
the sand beneath my toes thickens
and turns more to stone
and shells
I am walking to the bottom of the ocean

so peculiar
to the creatures
that made a claim
to this
territory

no fins no scales
accompany me

I walk with my eyes open
until life begins to fade
until darkness is all there is
when I get to the bottom
the pressure would **** anyone but me

a tiny light sits
in the nothingness
so small almost nothings eyes could catch it
but I know
I came here for it
I have searched for it
far and wide
and here it is
the last real living star

I reach for it
slowly
savor such a moment
and as my fingers grasp it
I find myself
in space
again
empty handed

"can I not have one beautiful thing on earth!"
I scream into the nothingness
but no words come out
i scoff
not surprised
but I am startled
that all the times I have been dragged
back here
none of them have hurt less
then the first time I was betrayed

"nothing that beautiful belongs on earth"
whispers the heavens
but I am frustrated
"I have searched, and searched! and now I am leaving empty handed again! you have to promise me, promise me something beautiful, something beautiful but earthly"

"fine, I promise, I swear on all the planets in the universe"


and that's how I found *you.