Charlie,

something so beautiful shouldn't be in a box
something so beautiful shouldn't be beneath the ground
someone so beautiful shouldn't be surrounded by the people who let them die

they killed you

I killed you

I didn't even know, Charlie
why didn't you tell me?

I could've saved you
could I?

your parents are here
they're together because of you, Charlie

they're crying
I'm crying

we spilled tears
you spilled blood

I did that to you

I reduced you to a memory
a news article
another name in the obituary
a rumor

you wouldn't have wanted that, Charlie
you didn't deserve that

I'm sorry

I miss you already

your skin against mine
your lips moving against mine
your heart beating with mine

I took all of that away from us

we were reduced to
feet to dirt
fist to dirt
tears to dirt

I did this to us
I did this to you

i'm

so

sorry


( part two )