Let me tell you what I remember hot stormy nights in my south land running barefoot through the field hearing mom call us out the back door momma cooking fried chicken drinking sweet ice tea..
Trying to be quiet not seen with tears of desperation just staying alive dreaming of kisses from the boy next door. Listening to the beatles on my transistor radio and Johnny Be Good and so many others waiting for Daddy to come back from the war...
Trying to find clothes to fit me from the clothes the church laid at our doorstep being poor as a church mouse eating grits for breakfast the third week in a row finding my two little sisters in the cubbard eating dried jello out of the box to fill their hungry souls....
Dreading going to my uncles, he was such a pervert wishing my daddy would come home and beat his *** believing no one would believe us, we hid our hurt and shame crying to God or anyone that would listen love was never very fitting in those days......
Growing up to be people with problems rising as tall as the celing just wanting to hide and float away.. Christmas would come with nothing under the tree or maybe a pair of socks and we would cry with joy mom would make us a cake for one birthday with money she made from the blood of her hands with eight kids we looked like we were starving so many of us had hollow looks as we could not stand...
Yes life came and it went.. some died and ran to find peace it took a lifetime of wants to find the way at least with millions of tears that fled down the hillside of time we all take what we can get but finally learn to give with little laughter in between...
Learned to live with butterflies and hearts with little ones like us gives us a another start. Life turns us around one day at a time then one day you look in the mirror and cry' what in the hell happend I use to be young now I look like the northern sun with wrinkles and weathered with time hair so white, maybe just maybe I pray it's the wrong time...
One day I will be gone from this world God has promised a life with him in gold and jewels of heavenly sent. I have been blessed these many years. but It sure will be nice to be in glory with Him..