i'm going to tell you a pathetic truth i'm getting over you, and i feel guilty for it
i feel guilty for acknowledging the sprouting feelings for another man who is nothing like you and it feels so nice, i feel like i should be ashamed of it i can feel myself changing, like the phases of the moon hiding the side of my face i called my good side because it was the cheek you kissed when we began and ended
i always thought i was lucky, you know if i even got to feel this way once and you were my once and i had decided it was enough and we ended i had decided it was enough
the mere thought of experiencing this again restarting reintroducing refalling however many times it takes to get it right twists my heart up
because i wanted to get it right the first time and with you
and i'm starting to care less and that feels wrong which might make no sense because this is probably good and supposed to happen
but i don't think i can take having something so good again and not being sure i get to keep it this time
because what if it doesn't work out and even scarier, what if it does