It's the type of loneliness that weighs on your chest Clinching your lungs Draining your heart Stuffing your brain Freeing wasps in your stomach
Where you love your family but you'd be fine without them You like your friends but chose to reject any contact You long for complete isolation And avoid any chance of human interactions
Where you feel so, so alone, you create imaginary friends like a child Just to preserve your sanity Trust me, when you lose them You lose yourself
Its when you feel so afraid and confused and sad and in pain Because if it's just you You know you will fail Fear of the hopeless Confusion of the actions Sadness of the loss Pain of the emptiness, being the castaway no one really wants Never really wanted
The crying is the worst part Everything that makes you cry is in your head Silent and exaggerated For your lungs fail to function correctly The tears keep falling and your nose keeps running Mind races and you curl up in a ball In your closet With no light Blind Because sometimes its hard to open your eyes to life It hurts to see all it's evil and so little good
Its the closest thing to that place between being awake and falling asleep Or maybe between this world and eternity
Loneliness makes you want to be more alone Its tricky like that All you need is one person I have around ten But you can't see them And I still feel the deepest kind of lonely Just one person could save you Someone to comfort me To share the load To laugh with To love me To care
But that is ******* Nobody could want to be that for me Because I'm a broken, unfixable, pathetic, and hopeless person And they know, as well as I do, There is no future for such a young, destroyed person
It's the type of loneliness where you see no future No hope And no reasons To keep on going