the scent of you still clings to my sheets and feelings confuse me my skype history is a long list of confessions but my biggest secrets are still buried within me i feel sick i wish i could purge on self-hatred i'll dig out these secrets for the sake of this poem, or ramble, or whatever it is core myself on sharp shards of broken hearts - i have plenty to choose from more fuel to the fire, my ever-burning hatred for myself when will it consume me? i feel sick
confession no.1 i just ate all of the chocolate in the fridge so it wouldn't have to stare me in the face any longer swallowed it down like its sweetness didn't make me feel bitter and followed it with a bowl of cereal as a last hoorah for my oncoming diet
confession no.2 i'm **** at this poetry thing or at least that's how i feel
i can't even be good at something i love how could anyone expect me to be good at loving?
confession no.3 right now, i feel nothing but resentment and hatred for my mother her snide comment about my commitment to my therapy made me want to break her neck
confession no.4 i'm incredibly blunt, which is probably why i **** at poetry i also haven't gotten my anger issues in check today, on the bus, i imagined shooting this racist woman's head repeatedly and i was angry that i couldn't make her bleed
confession no.5 it's raining outside and i don't feel any calmer perhaps it's just too mild for me when i feel this stormy biting back torrential tears like not crying will somehow make me a stronger hurricane but i'm still not good enough to blow anybody away
confession no.6 i feel sick in every sense of the word i kind of want to die