Feb 2016
_________
shake, cold, ****
Make me believe these forgeries spitting off your tongue,
thinking I am someone to purely award you my love.
when you're nothing more then trash
no, stop, crys,
"Make me?"
make you not take the vial of my youth, you hold it,
worthless to me, but worth everything you still hold over me.
years, passed, two,
Make the memories go away,
of all the things from that awful day,
you hold nothing and everything over me,
black-out, leg-spaz, cry-now,
Make me lose control of myself,
"do you really know yourself?
what is happening to you?"
count, tiles, breathe,
Makes me know the length and width
of every ceiling, every floor, every wall, of every room,
I'm stuck inside of as I struggle to just breathe,
in, and, out,
makes me wonder why I can't do these simple things,
makes me remember all my other flaws and mistakes,
makes it even harder to breathe,
please, help, me,
Make me look someone down,
and beg with my eyes,
for help, for something
giving, trust, hard,
makes it look easy when its not,
I can say it all that I want,
but do I mean it?.
Talk, to, me,
Make me tell you what is wrong,
tell me what to say,
tell me its okay when its not,
it's, not, okay,
make me argue with you,
make me have to tell you the truth,
my past and pain,
you're, just, helping,
Make me help myself,
make me learn to do things I need on my own,
Make me not feel bad for getting help.
you, did, good
Make sure I tell myself,
"because no one else is there to tell you,
how good you did for getting through,"
I, Make, Me
**make myself do the things I need,
I no longer rely on you or anyone for these,
I'm not a child anymore sweetie,
shake, cold, ****
Make me believe these forgeries spitting off your tongue,
thinking I am someone to purely award you my love.
when you're nothing more then trash
no, stop, crys,
"Make me?"
make you not take the vial of my youth, you hold it,
worthless to me, but worth everything you still hold over me.
years, passed, two,
Make the memories go away,
of all the things from that awful day,
you hold nothing and everything over me,
black-out, leg-spaz, cry-now,
Make me lose control of myself,
"do you really know yourself?
what is happening to you?"
count, tiles, breathe,
Makes me know the length and width
of every ceiling, every floor, every wall, of every room,
I'm stuck inside of as I struggle to just breathe,
in, and, out,
makes me wonder why I can't do these simple things,
makes me remember all my other flaws and mistakes,
makes it even harder to breathe,
please, help, me,
Make me look someone down,
and beg with my eyes,
for help, for something
giving, trust, hard,
makes it look easy when its not,
I can say it all that I want,
but do I mean it?.
Talk, to, me,
Make me tell you what is wrong,
tell me what to say,
tell me its okay when its not,
it's, not, okay,
make me argue with you,
make me have to tell you the truth,
my past and pain,
you're, just, helping,
Make me help myself,
make me learn to do things I need on my own,
Make me not feel bad for getting help.
you, did, good
Make sure I tell myself,
"because no one else is there to tell you,
how good you did for getting through,"
I, Make, Me
**make myself do the things I need,
I no longer rely on you or anyone for these,
I'm not a child anymore sweetie,
