i am a prisoner to your fingertips and i am recidivating and falling in love with a jail cell is not glamorous but i’m not sure how to stop i have scraped my fingernails with barbed wire trying to get rid of you, why won’t you leave? there are gaps between our teeth so the breath between you and i can keep us alive during the times we binge on kisses is this what it feels like to be an addict? i cannot rest until your lungs have swallowed my consciousness and for a heart to keep beating there must be a reason and this is why people die of heartbreak because ******* it, there is no reason without you my heart hasn’t stopped beating; i think it is just as hopeful teeth don’t always have to bite so why do you use them as weapons? not only am i a prisoner to your fingertips but to your mind, to the gaps between your teeth even when you can’t bear to kiss me, to the idea that one day i’ll receive a get-out-jail-free card and you’ll be waiting at the iron gates for me i don’t have a release date but i expect i’ll be serving a lifelong sentence i am barricaded in and all i can hear is your voice all i can see is your face all i can do is clutch on to the voice i lost a long time ago but i would scream if i could and do you know how lonely it is being a prisoner in an abandoned jail? i am a prisoner to your body and every time you demand my touch, i am there and every time you throw me away, locked up and silenced for days, i am not plotting my escape i am famished and starved and famished and starved, i think it’s because you keep swallowing my consciousness and no amount of food will fill me; i have grown accustomed to being empty i am a prisoner to your fingertips and i have fallen in love with this jail cell home