I'd rather not write than write poorly the same way I'd rather not laugh if not wholeheartedly the same way I'd rather not care when heartbroken.
Yet I write when a decent sentence is a struggle and I laughΒ Β when I'm so lonely I could vanish cold and I care all too much too often.
The balance came when I realized that it would take one woman to break my heart, two good friends to water my eyes from laughter, and one hundred poems before I chiseled something worth looking at.