You'd forget to turn the lights off You'd forget to close the toothpaste You'd forget your clothes in the drier You'd forget to charge your phone You'd forget to feed the fish ...
So I did all these things for you
You see, I was convinced that showing you was better than telling you But you never saw it, now did you?
- Sometimes I'd forget to do all these things on purpose, so I would remember how it felt like to be with you -
I secretly hope that you can't find your clothes and your fish die and your electric bill reaches a 100 billion dollars
Just so you could see that I was good for you
You know what? No. __ NO, NO NO
I do secretly hope that your phone dies and your clothes get lost and your fish die and your toothpaste gets dried up
But only so you could learn the importance of what I used to do to recognize your faults and to try and improve, not for me but for you.
... and I'm not talking about the toothpaste here
You can't demonstrate the change you want to see in someone if they don't even understand the error in their ways
and so,
I don't want to be the person who struggles to forgive and forget
I want to be the person who lives with no regret
knowing that us, ending, was for the best.
and the best of each of us
I don't want you to miss me as much as I want you to change, for the better. It was wrong of me to do all the things that you were supposed to do, and to overlook your faults. I think it made you feel like you were so complete that you didn't need me in your life. I see that now. I don't want an apology nor a report of progress. I just want you to do what is best for you, to find the best version of yourself, maybe then you'd be capable of a deeper, more soulful connection.