its out of the blue
completely unrelated times like these when
****, do i miss you

when i would see the flaws in your face
and you, the bad habits of my hands

when our breaths would mix
and create a concoction never meant to exist

when you made me feel like absolute ****
and i loved and craved it

when our body heat burned
and our chemicals reacted

when i watched you fall asleep
and i would lie awake and dream
of what could be

when your arm would be around me
and i looked up and saw a (potential) future

but these days are in the past, gone
an idiotic, stupid, immature
(if only there were more words)
mistake, my mistake

now, life moves on
but I'm stuck, trapped
in a vicious cycle
that always takes me back
to you