no longer have I been uncomfortable with blending into the monotony of society as I've become substantially content in the concept of simply blending in, because when you're unattached and invisible in a world where things seem to matter so much, everything doesn't seem to matter, at all if I am no longer noticeable I save so much time from being noticed by insignificant potential lovers that claim to be infatuated with my every attribute and characteristic, and it saves myself from believing those lies that set me on a useless love quest in reality, does anything really matter? why do I have to feel such strong emotions that I never wanted to feel in the first place? what is so wrong with wanting to put a stop to all nonsense ringing in my head by just simply disconnecting? however much I would like to be able to have the willpower to actually detach myself from those around me, I cannot. oh how I'd love to be able to just simply forget you but I can't, because you're everywhere and I'm nowhere