"I want to **** myself"
I say
But no, I promise,
not today.
I'm planning on never actually.
cuz today
I swear
things are pretty okay.

I love my life,
and the beautiful blue sky,
the spring air whipping by,
the almost silent sound of a sigh...
and their engaging eyes...

I love living
and looking forward
to summer swimming,
looking ahead
to everything I've been missing...

Being alive
is such a rush,
a roller coaster,
and I'm loving the ride.
It's a grand adventure
every day a new surprise.
And nothings going to change my mind
I love this life.