I like poetry Like a painter likes art While they make brush strokes I stand up and try to evoke Feelings I can’t paint a picture with a brush But I sure as hell can with words For instance Some of the most beautiful things Come from sadness I’ve seen Poets hold back tears When talking about lost lovers I’ve met vagabonds who run From state to state looking for A place to call home I’ve held my baby brother and sister In my arms while I smile to myself Knowing that they will have a better Future than me. I put these thoughts into poems Because we use feelings to create It doesn’t matter if it’s Poetry, photography or painting We all have an escape My favorite artist killed himself At the age of 29 His only escape Consisted of starry nights Wandering in wheat fields And painting the man he wishes He could be Not realizing he had All of the time in the world To find his happiness But It didn’t take much time For the bullet to enter his chest Lead penetrating his heart Where his passion should be His last words were The Sadness will last forever And it does It feels like an eternity When depression is clawing your back Leaving you bruised and scarred When anxiety comes crawling back Leaving you broken and breathless Realizing the person you once were Is no longer the person you truly are You’re not the same kid That your single mother raised Working night shifts at bars Where people were shot in cold blood Because my father decided That leaving a 19-year-old woman With a newborn was a good idea You’re not the same teenager who prayed To a god every night and ended up Being even more alone than before I don’t believe in hell But if it’s real then I’m already living in it You soon begin to realize That life doesn’t owe you anything So you try to make the best of it Even when you’re dying inside Because life is about memoires Sometimes you have to stop and smell the roses Watch the sunset and sunrise You have to travel to the places You dreamed of seeing as a kid To remember the innocence Fall in love with someone that Leaves a fire in your chest That cannot be extinguished Because for once Waking up will be okay If they’re in your arms Learn to live your own life Before you teach somebody else How to live theirs Learn to love yourself Learn to live freely And don’t be afraid to explore You have to be lost To eventually find where You belong anyway So don’t rush to your destination There’s so much to see along the way
This was inspired by the Vincent Van Gogh painting, "Wheatfield with Crows." The last painting he painted before committing suicide.