its as if i am flying
soaring up up up
until I'm nothing but a speck in the sky,
which somehow seems better than being a speck on the earth.
i can feel the wind in my face,
reaching out and enveloping its arms around me.
i desire to fly higher, higher, higher,
until I'm navigating through the stars,
worlds away from where i meant to be.
but then I'm falling.
crashing.
screaming.
all there is is darkness and i don't understand because everything was so good and i was finally seeing the world in color after all these years of black and white.
and suddenly,
i don't see anything at all.
and the worst part is
when i awake,
the nightmare is just beginning